here's to the nights we felt alive...
its beautiful out. sunny, windy, green and blue. i miss the thunderstorms, now that was amazing. i cant remember the last time we've had so many. it woulda been nice to have a tornado - if only for my selfish reason of wanting to spend the night at Timofy's house. not necessarily with the destruction, just enough for an obstruction really.
there's a little spider on my window sill. off-black on white. one of the ones that like to jump if you try to catch them. its on the other side of the window, i guess it came through the screen, i want to let it outside but it is closer to that goal than i am. i wonder how many spiders die when it rains; pours; or tornadoes. and how insignificant that is to everyone.
goddamn my stomach hurts. i think i have another ulcer. this one hurts much more than last time....and last time there were seven or so of them, so i dunno what that means exactly. i never feel like eating anymore, i get 'hungry' but its only a feeling and not a desire, if that makes any sense. mainly because i know its going to hurt or make me feel sick. i wish the damn pills would work so this would be better, the last week and a half to 2 weeks i've been waking up in terrible pain, like the kinda pain all you want to do is curl up and cry but at the same time you don't want to move at all. yea, beautiful. blah, i hate going to my doctor, he's an odd little indian man [from india, not a native american] that i can hardly understand and i don' think that he ever understands me anyway. well its kinda fun just for entertainment, but not when i actually need something done.
ee. its early, but i hafta get some work done *gasp!* yes i am actually doing homerk....well, this is for a group project so i feel more compelled to do it so that i don't bring everyone else down, especially when we have our presentation tomorrow. yeup, thats right. we got a whole....1hr and 15mins to do this project wich i would have given the groups at least 3 to 4 hours to work on in class. ....yea, really cool how our project is gonna suck ass and she [the teacher] just thinks its funny. oh ha ha. i bet she'll take off for our poor planning too....damn her.
haha....okay, now i'm really going....really.
and oh, by the way, timotay is a muddafuggin hottie, who i just happen to be missing very much. [i'll pretend that i'm kissing the lips i am missing .....] amazing and gorgeous [who could ask for anything more?] <3<3:)
there's a little spider on my window sill. off-black on white. one of the ones that like to jump if you try to catch them. its on the other side of the window, i guess it came through the screen, i want to let it outside but it is closer to that goal than i am. i wonder how many spiders die when it rains; pours; or tornadoes. and how insignificant that is to everyone.
goddamn my stomach hurts. i think i have another ulcer. this one hurts much more than last time....and last time there were seven or so of them, so i dunno what that means exactly. i never feel like eating anymore, i get 'hungry' but its only a feeling and not a desire, if that makes any sense. mainly because i know its going to hurt or make me feel sick. i wish the damn pills would work so this would be better, the last week and a half to 2 weeks i've been waking up in terrible pain, like the kinda pain all you want to do is curl up and cry but at the same time you don't want to move at all. yea, beautiful. blah, i hate going to my doctor, he's an odd little indian man [from india, not a native american] that i can hardly understand and i don' think that he ever understands me anyway. well its kinda fun just for entertainment, but not when i actually need something done.
ee. its early, but i hafta get some work done *gasp!* yes i am actually doing homerk....well, this is for a group project so i feel more compelled to do it so that i don't bring everyone else down, especially when we have our presentation tomorrow. yeup, thats right. we got a whole....1hr and 15mins to do this project wich i would have given the groups at least 3 to 4 hours to work on in class. ....yea, really cool how our project is gonna suck ass and she [the teacher] just thinks its funny. oh ha ha. i bet she'll take off for our poor planning too....damn her.
haha....okay, now i'm really going....really.
and oh, by the way, timotay is a muddafuggin hottie, who i just happen to be missing very much. [i'll pretend that i'm kissing the lips i am missing .....] amazing and gorgeous [who could ask for anything more?] <3<3:)