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We can’t heal until we hit rock bottom.
For a long time I considered January 31st of 2004 to be when I hit rock bottom. I realize now, a year later, that I was nowhere close. Looking back, that was only the turning point. That’s what set everything off.
I still consider it to be one of the worst nights of my life. And there’s only one person who I think could really understand what I went through that night, and I don’t know if she even realizes what an impact she had on me. I don’t think she knows that she is the only thing that kept me sane.
So much has happened since then. So much that I never wanted to go through, but in a way I’m glad I did. I feel like I’ve learned something from all of this, if it’s only that I’m stronger than I thought. I’ve learned a lot about the role other people play in my life. And how I let them influence the way I feel.
I’d like to say that this year has to be better than last, because I can’t go through everything again. But the truth is I could. I think I'm much stronger now.
For a long time I considered January 31st of 2004 to be when I hit rock bottom. I realize now, a year later, that I was nowhere close. Looking back, that was only the turning point. That’s what set everything off.
I still consider it to be one of the worst nights of my life. And there’s only one person who I think could really understand what I went through that night, and I don’t know if she even realizes what an impact she had on me. I don’t think she knows that she is the only thing that kept me sane.
So much has happened since then. So much that I never wanted to go through, but in a way I’m glad I did. I feel like I’ve learned something from all of this, if it’s only that I’m stronger than I thought. I’ve learned a lot about the role other people play in my life. And how I let them influence the way I feel.
I’d like to say that this year has to be better than last, because I can’t go through everything again. But the truth is I could. I think I'm much stronger now.