anyone who can tell me this IS god.

[if_i_have_to_go]

i love him. when i'm with him everything *is* simple. with one word e-mails he can make me feel so perfect.

but right now i hate it.

everytime i'm away from him i just want it over.

tell me why.

please.

on a lighter note. i feel better today. no sickness. no sleeping all day. a lot of work.

but i can't get rid of this shaking.