worst feeling....ever...
Rough 24 hrs. last night i did some drinking.. only 2 drinks.... but i didnt take into consideration all the meds i was on nor that i only had a grapefruit and a lean cuisine to eat allll day....so i was drunk from 2 drinks it was terrible. evan decided he wasnt done partying and didnt want to basically dealw/ me so he had a drive us back to my apartment so they just drop me off .... he doesnt wait to see if i get in.... and the chain lock was locked so i was locked out...my phone had completely died, so i slept on the porch for a while untill karas boyfriend heard me crying n let me in. so this morning i wake up n have pink eye..... on top of the fact id been sick for the whole week.... on my way to the infirmary i stop by phi delt to talk to evan and he breaks up with me his reasoning ..... because weve been together for so long its starting to get rather serious and he doesnt feel hes ready for it.... but he he says still loves me, but hes doing what he feels he has to do for him ad it wouldnt be fair to me blah blha blah. he cried i cried, then he drove me to the doctors... so.... so much for 1st loves, i have to see him once more when the present i ordered for our 8 mnth comes in... i got it from europe so i cant return it and i ahve no use for it. so i go to the doctors and find out i have tonsillitis, a head cold, and pink eye. i cant remember the last time i felt worse... my body ached and my hearts completely shattered. its just been an all around bad day and i really feel like listening to my old incubus cds bc for some reason they alway made me feel better... but theyre gone like all my other cds. i miss my mommy. as sad as that sounds theres nothing more comforting than having ur mom there, guess that makes me a mommas girl. at least she loves me.