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Hooray for Friday.
This weekend should be a fun one and I am looking forward to some time to sit and relax :) I finally had my last set of blood tests done for stuff and it's good to be OUT of the waiting rooms.
Classes are kickin' A - in fulfilling and difficul aspects and I am looking forward to finally sleeping in my own bed monday night!
This last week's bible study was our last one for this sphere session and this book, Believing God by Beth Moore. This book has never spoke to me in such an incredible, truth telling way as this one has. It had the ability for God's word to be infused in my life to compeltely wreck and ravage it in a beautiful vulnerable joyous way. I mean, how can you now LOVE lessons that you learn about life that are NOT hard? It makes u appreciate grace and Jesus and love. I recommend it to any woman who needs some HARD HITTING TRUTH in their lives and really ready to uncover what God has to say about YOU, who you ARE In Christ and the things to cling to. This Beth Moore has a way of letting God really use her to speak to me in a way that really are truths I need to belive about myself and the characteristics I DO have from and IN God.
Most of all, just letting go of any strongholds that I may or may not be aware of. The ones that I am aware of are the ones I find most annoying. For some reason, i just don't want to give those up when I really should realize that holding onto these things is keeping me from being more in relationship with Him - a huge sacrifice i DEFINITELY DO NOT want to make. Something that struck me towards the ends was a thoughts, 'Life is unfair. And the only person to blame is Jesus." But, at first glance of course a bitter heart would want to throw their fists up in the air and yell YES. My life sucks. Things could be better. This isn't what's supposed to happen....but I think i've found myself in that boat lately 90% of the time.......yet, recently have I really learned to just let it all go, let the guard down and scream that but also realize, that I would be missing out on something so miraculous and beautiful, grace and mery....that if ilife was fair, I'd miss out on these opportunities to reallye xperience a true love and unconditional feeling and heart truth that GOD does in fact, keep his promises. He answers. He knows.
So, despite my fears and bitterness, i think GOd is slowly chipping away at that ice cold sheath i've placed around my heart....finally a freedom to just relax and know that God is taking care of me. Here's the road to realizing my fears being lonely, injustice, forgiveness are a thing of the past....although issues I must face and deal with, here's to looking for a new resolution to know these things are valid. I'm worth being human and worth being loved and to believe God for all his wonders and truth. You really can't beat that, now can you?
This weekend should be a fun one and I am looking forward to some time to sit and relax :) I finally had my last set of blood tests done for stuff and it's good to be OUT of the waiting rooms.
Classes are kickin' A - in fulfilling and difficul aspects and I am looking forward to finally sleeping in my own bed monday night!
This last week's bible study was our last one for this sphere session and this book, Believing God by Beth Moore. This book has never spoke to me in such an incredible, truth telling way as this one has. It had the ability for God's word to be infused in my life to compeltely wreck and ravage it in a beautiful vulnerable joyous way. I mean, how can you now LOVE lessons that you learn about life that are NOT hard? It makes u appreciate grace and Jesus and love. I recommend it to any woman who needs some HARD HITTING TRUTH in their lives and really ready to uncover what God has to say about YOU, who you ARE In Christ and the things to cling to. This Beth Moore has a way of letting God really use her to speak to me in a way that really are truths I need to belive about myself and the characteristics I DO have from and IN God.
Most of all, just letting go of any strongholds that I may or may not be aware of. The ones that I am aware of are the ones I find most annoying. For some reason, i just don't want to give those up when I really should realize that holding onto these things is keeping me from being more in relationship with Him - a huge sacrifice i DEFINITELY DO NOT want to make. Something that struck me towards the ends was a thoughts, 'Life is unfair. And the only person to blame is Jesus." But, at first glance of course a bitter heart would want to throw their fists up in the air and yell YES. My life sucks. Things could be better. This isn't what's supposed to happen....but I think i've found myself in that boat lately 90% of the time.......yet, recently have I really learned to just let it all go, let the guard down and scream that but also realize, that I would be missing out on something so miraculous and beautiful, grace and mery....that if ilife was fair, I'd miss out on these opportunities to reallye xperience a true love and unconditional feeling and heart truth that GOD does in fact, keep his promises. He answers. He knows.
So, despite my fears and bitterness, i think GOd is slowly chipping away at that ice cold sheath i've placed around my heart....finally a freedom to just relax and know that God is taking care of me. Here's the road to realizing my fears being lonely, injustice, forgiveness are a thing of the past....although issues I must face and deal with, here's to looking for a new resolution to know these things are valid. I'm worth being human and worth being loved and to believe God for all his wonders and truth. You really can't beat that, now can you?