Listen to me, I'm screaming in your ear as you're turning away.

[idyllictraces]

Do I speak gibberish? Is every word from my mouth dripping with disdain that I can't see, you fucking seem to think so. I wish you'de get your head out of your arse long enough to realise that the whole world isn't out to insult you, it's a bad time and I'm not trying to make it worse, believe it or not, okay bitching at you now isn't helping but I'm sick of being pushed away to be the one that comes back arms held open. I'm better then that, I'm better then what you think of me, I'm so much better but you cover your ears and closed your eyes and don't look and listen to anything I do or say. The way you see it must be the right way, but you're wrong, sometimes your wrong and it always hurts me to talk, I have to guard my words because I'm so scared you'll go crying off, that you'll push away and say it doesn't matter. You don't want to be around me because I'll try and persuade you that I'm not all nasty words, drop it, just let it go for gods sake. Because i don't know if you cry but I know I do and sometimes it's because I hurt you, but now it's because you won't think better of me.

I'm not trash, I'm not filled with underlying insults.
I can't stand it that you think so low of me, I really can't stand it.