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i'm suffocating on my thoughts. i'm dreading the next second that i have to think. i assume the position of strength and i pray to god that he'll help me through it. you need me more than i do right now. i've been through this before, i wisper to my body to quit being selfish. i'm giving it my best shot. then my throat tightens and my body tingles. it starts up high and works it way down. i begin to tremor, my chest feels heavy, and i fall weak. i want more than anything to be the one who stands strong. a soldier who walks with his head up high into the most difficult of situations.
i've never felt as scared and alone. i know youre here but the more i think about you protecting anyone but yourself right now...the more ...fuck. i can't even write. i don't know what to do with myself. i can't sleep. i want to fix it all. i want to go to bed....please..please..please.
i don't even want to post this....
i've never felt as scared and alone. i know youre here but the more i think about you protecting anyone but yourself right now...the more ...fuck. i can't even write. i don't know what to do with myself. i can't sleep. i want to fix it all. i want to go to bed....please..please..please.
i don't even want to post this....