AHH im losin it
ok so it has been a long time since i have updated u guys on my life and shyt but i have so much going on that i might as well write and get it ALL off of my chest.
i dont even know where to start...
so i have been with frankie... for about 6 months now, i know LONG time already but i mean i dunno... nevermind that well talk about mike,
when we broke up... and i dont mean one of our little stupid fights i mean actually ended everything i was scared but i felt like it needed to happen that way. now 8 months later im not so sure that was supposed to happen, u know what i mean. but anyways i have been with frankie for about 6 months now... me and mike broke up 8 months ago so as u can see i wasnt single for long. and in between them i dated this guy lance so ya. i kinda jumped right into something that maybe i wasnt ready for.
Frankie is amazing...
he is an amazing guy hes sweet hes hott he makes me laugh
but part of me feels something isnt right with "us"
i dunno
maybe its just cuz im still in love with mike and im about to fuck everything with frankie up,
or maybe its truly isnt RIGHT. u know what i mean
now being 18 i know im probably not going to marry the next guy who walks into my life... or the guy after that, or even the one after that but i guess i have a hard time letting go.
after all
i love frankie
him and krystal are like my family
but romantically, im confused.
dont get me wrong
the sex is good LMAO
its just i dunno
so anyways
i have tried to get a hold of mike for a couple months now, since i have realized my feelings. but he wont pick up
for a little while he started answering and texting me and tellin me he missed me and he wanted to fuck and all that garbage but it felt nice so i was supposed to go see him... but the more i talked to him the more i felt like something was right but something WASNT right.
turns out hes got a new girlfriend.
EW
shes spanish
FUCKING SPANISH WHORES (right missy)
and she weighs like 95 lbs
shes dark skinned and totally opposite of me
maybe thats what he needed
but i dunno he used to tell me how he loved my curves and my body and now hes got himself a bean pole.
i mean i heard from HIS FRIENDS that shes ugly
no titts
no ass
not pretty
even his CLOSEST friends have sent me messages letting me know that im way better... and we were way better together. shes not friendly or nice, shes quiet and boring.
but u cant hold onto something that truly isnt there
and hes not
so anyways we cut off all contact again because he changed his number and all that so whatever i changed my shit too. maybe we need to take a break from EVERYTHING like have NO contact with eachother u know? if were supposed to be together we will
but back to frankie
hes such an amazing guy
like i swear to god
however, hes got quite a past.
and he started dealin drugs a little while ago and well the other day WHATTTUUUUKNOW me krystal and frankie go to jail, do not pass go do not collect 200 dollars etc etc etc. It sucked. so i bail frankie out 2 days later and becuz we got arrested, were not aloud in the complex, so where do we live? the 3 of us have been livin with my mom in my complex... so where do we go? well we went from hotel to hotel to hotel gettin krunk and tryin to stick together as a family.
the first night we stayed at this decently nice place it was IN a dennys and it was fucking good shit.
we had kind of a party that night
it was weird.
it was kinda funny though because i had my grill in my mouth, a krunk cup, a marijuanna mardi gras beads and i looked krunk lmao
the guys next to us were big, black, and GANGSTA
i fit right in.
it was me primo frankie krystal buddy chris jackson and i dunno a few others... i was SOOOOOO drunk.
omg drunk
the next night we drove all the way to miami in a car with no AC sweating balls to get some money from frankies dad
so we get there
and we take the money and drive back
we end up checking in to this shit hole hotel
it seriously smelled like someone died in there, like 3 years ago.
it was GROSS
but we stuck it out.
the next night we thought we had an awesome hotel. it was on the beach, the people who owned itwere krunk. we thought it was amazing.
but it had NO a.c
1 bed
and a tile floor.
so i dont get THAT drunk and i end up takin care of shit.
finally everyone left and it turned into
me, krystal, primo, julian, denean, charlie, frankie
so i go home (im aloud on the property, krystal and frankie arent) in the morning because i couldnt sleep on a hard floor and all so i get there i laid down and just as i was about to fall asleep my phone goes off.
its frankie
they are kicking him and all my friends out of the hotel (mind u we rented it for 2 nights)
so i had to drive down there and try to sort things out.
so
we get another hotel
this one is real nice.
its on the beach
IT HAS AC
2 beds
a safe
everything
FINALLY
so we stay there the last night and just smoke, and drink a lil
so my living situation has been ridiculous.
another interesting bit of information
i have been diagnosed with a disease called MERCA
its where when i get cut my white blood cells dont actually go to the cut to help heal it so in turn its easily infected.
i have been gettin these weird ass infected cuts and shyt and i thought i was gettin bit by spiders but i wasnt
it can actually kill u
so they gave me an antibiotic and some other shit i have to put in my nose 2 times a day.
they also prescribed me Vicodin
muahahaha
lol
so ya its no jokin manner
if i finish these meds i should be ok.
its kind of scary though.
i dunno
so hmm... what else.
i really dont have beef with any girls
and im still in school and all that.
so im moving
me krystal and frankie are moving to connecticut,
probably soon
and the scariest part is..
im not joking
so i dunno
i have so much more to write but im in class and i wanna see who reads this and responds so write me a comment bitches
xoxox
the one and only
i dont even know where to start...
so i have been with frankie... for about 6 months now, i know LONG time already but i mean i dunno... nevermind that well talk about mike,
when we broke up... and i dont mean one of our little stupid fights i mean actually ended everything i was scared but i felt like it needed to happen that way. now 8 months later im not so sure that was supposed to happen, u know what i mean. but anyways i have been with frankie for about 6 months now... me and mike broke up 8 months ago so as u can see i wasnt single for long. and in between them i dated this guy lance so ya. i kinda jumped right into something that maybe i wasnt ready for.
Frankie is amazing...
he is an amazing guy hes sweet hes hott he makes me laugh
but part of me feels something isnt right with "us"
i dunno
maybe its just cuz im still in love with mike and im about to fuck everything with frankie up,
or maybe its truly isnt RIGHT. u know what i mean
now being 18 i know im probably not going to marry the next guy who walks into my life... or the guy after that, or even the one after that but i guess i have a hard time letting go.
after all
i love frankie
him and krystal are like my family
but romantically, im confused.
dont get me wrong
the sex is good LMAO
its just i dunno
so anyways
i have tried to get a hold of mike for a couple months now, since i have realized my feelings. but he wont pick up
for a little while he started answering and texting me and tellin me he missed me and he wanted to fuck and all that garbage but it felt nice so i was supposed to go see him... but the more i talked to him the more i felt like something was right but something WASNT right.
turns out hes got a new girlfriend.
EW
shes spanish
FUCKING SPANISH WHORES (right missy)
and she weighs like 95 lbs
shes dark skinned and totally opposite of me
maybe thats what he needed
but i dunno he used to tell me how he loved my curves and my body and now hes got himself a bean pole.
i mean i heard from HIS FRIENDS that shes ugly
no titts
no ass
not pretty
even his CLOSEST friends have sent me messages letting me know that im way better... and we were way better together. shes not friendly or nice, shes quiet and boring.
but u cant hold onto something that truly isnt there
and hes not
so anyways we cut off all contact again because he changed his number and all that so whatever i changed my shit too. maybe we need to take a break from EVERYTHING like have NO contact with eachother u know? if were supposed to be together we will
but back to frankie
hes such an amazing guy
like i swear to god
however, hes got quite a past.
and he started dealin drugs a little while ago and well the other day WHATTTUUUUKNOW me krystal and frankie go to jail, do not pass go do not collect 200 dollars etc etc etc. It sucked. so i bail frankie out 2 days later and becuz we got arrested, were not aloud in the complex, so where do we live? the 3 of us have been livin with my mom in my complex... so where do we go? well we went from hotel to hotel to hotel gettin krunk and tryin to stick together as a family.
the first night we stayed at this decently nice place it was IN a dennys and it was fucking good shit.
we had kind of a party that night
it was weird.
it was kinda funny though because i had my grill in my mouth, a krunk cup, a marijuanna mardi gras beads and i looked krunk lmao
the guys next to us were big, black, and GANGSTA
i fit right in.
it was me primo frankie krystal buddy chris jackson and i dunno a few others... i was SOOOOOO drunk.
omg drunk
the next night we drove all the way to miami in a car with no AC sweating balls to get some money from frankies dad
so we get there
and we take the money and drive back
we end up checking in to this shit hole hotel
it seriously smelled like someone died in there, like 3 years ago.
it was GROSS
but we stuck it out.
the next night we thought we had an awesome hotel. it was on the beach, the people who owned itwere krunk. we thought it was amazing.
but it had NO a.c
1 bed
and a tile floor.
so i dont get THAT drunk and i end up takin care of shit.
finally everyone left and it turned into
me, krystal, primo, julian, denean, charlie, frankie
so i go home (im aloud on the property, krystal and frankie arent) in the morning because i couldnt sleep on a hard floor and all so i get there i laid down and just as i was about to fall asleep my phone goes off.
its frankie
they are kicking him and all my friends out of the hotel (mind u we rented it for 2 nights)
so i had to drive down there and try to sort things out.
so
we get another hotel
this one is real nice.
its on the beach
IT HAS AC
2 beds
a safe
everything
FINALLY
so we stay there the last night and just smoke, and drink a lil
so my living situation has been ridiculous.
another interesting bit of information
i have been diagnosed with a disease called MERCA
its where when i get cut my white blood cells dont actually go to the cut to help heal it so in turn its easily infected.
i have been gettin these weird ass infected cuts and shyt and i thought i was gettin bit by spiders but i wasnt
it can actually kill u
so they gave me an antibiotic and some other shit i have to put in my nose 2 times a day.
they also prescribed me Vicodin
muahahaha
lol
so ya its no jokin manner
if i finish these meds i should be ok.
its kind of scary though.
i dunno
so hmm... what else.
i really dont have beef with any girls
and im still in school and all that.
so im moving
me krystal and frankie are moving to connecticut,
probably soon
and the scariest part is..
im not joking
so i dunno
i have so much more to write but im in class and i wanna see who reads this and responds so write me a comment bitches
xoxox
the one and only