For you.
I never truly apoligized for everything.
im so sorry. Im so, incredibly sorry. For everything i put you through. The stress, the groundings. Making you take me home just because i was too young to drive and i was too intimidated to call my parents. Getting caught falling asleep at 2 a.m. Im sorry if i ever embarassed you. Im sorry if i ever made you feel unwanted. Im so sorry for making you upset. not a day goes by that i dont think about you. That i think about how things could have been right now if i had just been a better girlfriend to you. But i loved you so much, i just didnt know how to tell you or show you. I still love you so much. Its heart breaking how much i still care for you. Not just in a passion way, but you're a very dear friend to me as well. I miss being your best friend that was a girl. I never got to thank you for everything you've ever done for me. You bought me a freaking bass for my birthday and you tried to make the best of my night and you brought me to a friend's house for a bonfire cause i had just got back into town. I miss those times so much you have no idea. Sometimes i wonder if you still think about them as well. I dunno. Im not good at confrentation. I've just bottled up all these feelings because i dont want to make you uncomfortable. I always consider your reaction before mine. So, im really sorry for trying to defend myself and acting like a bitch. I know i "had the right to" but you know me, my guilt always catches up. I can never stay mad at you. I never could. Im glad things are starting to patch up. Im gonna miss you when you leave school. Its just not gonna be the same.
You might not read this, but i just dont know how to sum it all up to you in person without getting all emotional and shit.
-rachel.
im so sorry. Im so, incredibly sorry. For everything i put you through. The stress, the groundings. Making you take me home just because i was too young to drive and i was too intimidated to call my parents. Getting caught falling asleep at 2 a.m. Im sorry if i ever embarassed you. Im sorry if i ever made you feel unwanted. Im so sorry for making you upset. not a day goes by that i dont think about you. That i think about how things could have been right now if i had just been a better girlfriend to you. But i loved you so much, i just didnt know how to tell you or show you. I still love you so much. Its heart breaking how much i still care for you. Not just in a passion way, but you're a very dear friend to me as well. I miss being your best friend that was a girl. I never got to thank you for everything you've ever done for me. You bought me a freaking bass for my birthday and you tried to make the best of my night and you brought me to a friend's house for a bonfire cause i had just got back into town. I miss those times so much you have no idea. Sometimes i wonder if you still think about them as well. I dunno. Im not good at confrentation. I've just bottled up all these feelings because i dont want to make you uncomfortable. I always consider your reaction before mine. So, im really sorry for trying to defend myself and acting like a bitch. I know i "had the right to" but you know me, my guilt always catches up. I can never stay mad at you. I never could. Im glad things are starting to patch up. Im gonna miss you when you leave school. Its just not gonna be the same.
You might not read this, but i just dont know how to sum it all up to you in person without getting all emotional and shit.
-rachel.