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[idril_evenstar]

I hate the days where you wake up ready to face the world, where you ask God to use you in a special way that day, and you feel ready to face anything that comes your way as long as God is there by side, only to have it all come crashing down. One minute you feel ready to face the world, and the next, you feel ready to cry. One minute it seems like God is by your side, and the next you feel all alone. It drives me insane. I'm tired of the devil constantly stomping on me and bringing me down. I'm tired of him trying to make me only look at myself and the stupid things going on in my life, all the while making me oblivious to the hurting world around me. I have found that lately I have been so concerned with the things of myself that I have not been looking at the people around me and the things they are going through. And the thing is today, I tried to look at others around me, and the devil hated it. He didn't want me doing that. He didn't want me helping others. So he uses my weaknesses against me and tries to stop me. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of the devil attacking me. Can't he give me a break just for one day. I can't take all this anymore. I want Satan to leave me alone.....
But then again, I have heard that if the devil is attacking you, you must be doing something right. If that's true, then maybe he shouldn't leave, maybe I should smile at him and say "have your fun, but since you're so angry with what I'm doing in my life, I'm going to keep on doing it." I suppose I just need to hang in there and be content in the fact that Satan is annoyed with me right now. That does seem to bring comfort.