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i hate him for doing what hes doing. I hate myself for not stoping it everytime. I hate how good the past was. I hate how i think about it everyday. I hate for the only time actually doing it, I get caught. I hate that i had to work and wasnt there to answer the phone. I hate my gay school. I hate that my dad wont let me go anywhere else. I hate how perfect I planned my future. I hate how with every test it seems to be slipping more out of reach. I hate how i dont have two. One to yell at me and one to stick up for me. I hate how I was done. I hate how now your back. I hate not hanging out with you. I hate listening to jack johnson and having a memory. I hate not being called snal anymore. I hate crying. I hate how it makes my lips look fat when i'm done. I hate people juding people on what they do in their own life. I hate how i'm worried of what your going to say to her. I hate how when people ask what my favorite feature is, I have to say my hair. I hate how those pictures today, made me sad. I hate how you probaly are the one i'm going to marry. I hate not having a car. I hate how once a month, you look for something wrong, and decide to step in as the dad. I hate how its so pathetic. I hate when people drive by my house and scream shit. I hate not going on boats anymore. I hate how you consider me a best friend, and he doesnt care. I hate-d when that song played as your new ringtone, and we both looked up and rememberd the PBMS cafeteria. I hate my new $2,000 laptop. I hate much I begged for it. I hate how i could never tell you how much i didnt like it without you getting depressed. I hate how much she always pops into my head everytime we cuddle. I hate how this is probaly going to cause some sort of drama. I hate this shit.