opinions welcome
lemme say this.
i've noticed a pattern. lets chat.
unavailable people that i've fallen for since 2007:
1. straight girl.
2. past love who i burned and who can't get over it.
3. married man with three kids.
4. emotionally unwilling closed off musician.
and now. and NOW- i have met/found somebody who i like SO MUCH, as in SO SO MUCH, and he likes me too and we vibe so well and we're such a great match and i'm completely twitterpated and excited, BUT.
he's been estranged from his wife for over a year. BUT. still lives with her. and their two kids. wants to get a divorce. but hasn't yet. i haven't met the kids yet, cuz the situation is too sticky and complicated right now. its a goddamn sticky fucking complicated situation!
and i'm not trying to be ungrateful. and i'm not trying to be impatient. and i'm not trying to rush into anything that i'm not ready for or that anyone else isn't ready for. and i'm not trying to push anyone to do things that they're not ready for or that their life doesn't allow for.
BUT what i am asking is why the fuck does this keep happening?
my friend, who is also a pisces, said it's easy for us to love people. we just find the good in them. i think thats true. i think thats why i fell for the aforementioned four. but this one, this new one- oh god. i feel like he has EVERYTHING i want, would want, would list, on a list of things that i want.
how come so many tears come out of me loving people?
i've noticed a pattern. lets chat.
unavailable people that i've fallen for since 2007:
1. straight girl.
2. past love who i burned and who can't get over it.
3. married man with three kids.
4. emotionally unwilling closed off musician.
and now. and NOW- i have met/found somebody who i like SO MUCH, as in SO SO MUCH, and he likes me too and we vibe so well and we're such a great match and i'm completely twitterpated and excited, BUT.
he's been estranged from his wife for over a year. BUT. still lives with her. and their two kids. wants to get a divorce. but hasn't yet. i haven't met the kids yet, cuz the situation is too sticky and complicated right now. its a goddamn sticky fucking complicated situation!
and i'm not trying to be ungrateful. and i'm not trying to be impatient. and i'm not trying to rush into anything that i'm not ready for or that anyone else isn't ready for. and i'm not trying to push anyone to do things that they're not ready for or that their life doesn't allow for.
BUT what i am asking is why the fuck does this keep happening?
my friend, who is also a pisces, said it's easy for us to love people. we just find the good in them. i think thats true. i think thats why i fell for the aforementioned four. but this one, this new one- oh god. i feel like he has EVERYTHING i want, would want, would list, on a list of things that i want.
how come so many tears come out of me loving people?