To the most perfect beautiful girl in the world
The day before thanksgiving, Chris was sent away, he would be gone for months, he had no idea it was going to happen and neither did i. I havnt been able to see or talk to him since then. I couldnt even talk to him, it was horrible. I had doubts that things would work out when he got back, becasue i thought things with him would change. I couldnt be more wrong. I talked to him for the first time two nights ago, and it was the best feeling in the entire world. he is coming home, and I cant wait to see him. I cant express how much I love and care about this boy, and he just sent me and E-mail, and it was one of the most meaningful things I have ever read....
To the most perfect beautiful girl in the world..you,
Morgen, I can't explain to you the hell I've been through these past 48 days until I talked to you, but in reading all of your letters, you understand. Your letters killed me reading them, and I want you to know that now that I'm 18, this will NEVER EVER happen again. I was abducted in the middle of the night, taken to the middle of nowhere, stripped of my identity and my self worth, and forced to live through a veritable hell for 48 days. I hated it, I hated my parents (still do), and hated myself. I wanted to kill myself every day I woke up under a tarp, freezing in the snow with nobody to cry to. I still have cold damage and can't feel the tips of my fingers or toes because of hypothermia. I can't count how many times I dreamed about you, cried myself to sleep about you, wanted to fucking die because half of my heart was ripped off and left with you..I literally was dead for almost seven weeks. I had no feelings other than pain, I had no motivation to wake up in the morning, I had no reason to live..except for a memory of an angel whom I had been taken from for no apparent reason. That memory of my angel let me wake up every morning, it let me hope, and it let me feel. I prayed twice aday literally, once every morning, and once every night; I prayed that you still loved me somewhere out there, I prayed that you hadn't found somebody else, I prayed you were safe, I prayed that I was coming home to you. That praying gave me the peace of mind I needed to wake up in the morning and keep living. I'm not extremely religious person, but I could't talk to you, and even so, my prayers were answered. I believe with all of my heart that we are meant to be together. You stayed true to me even when we couldn't talk for a long, long time. I stayed completely in love with you, even as I went through hell every day. To me, that is true love. I don't care what the movies say, what my parents say, what anybody says, I love you Morgen, and that's my heart speaking. You are my angel, my saving grace, my other half, my everything. I want to give you everything I have, my love, my body, my kisses, and my heart. I never want you to feel pain, or loss because of me ever again. The day I get back I'm going to spend hours just holding you and kissing you, and then I'm going to spend that night, all night, sleeping with you. I need to fall asleep knowing that I am holding the most perfect girl in the world. I missed that a hell of a lot, just being able to hold you Baby. I Love You Forever and with all of my heart Morgen, and I want you to never have to doubt that. I'm coming home, and by home I don't mean my old house, I mean to you. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!
Love, Your Chris<33
To the most perfect beautiful girl in the world..you,
Morgen, I can't explain to you the hell I've been through these past 48 days until I talked to you, but in reading all of your letters, you understand. Your letters killed me reading them, and I want you to know that now that I'm 18, this will NEVER EVER happen again. I was abducted in the middle of the night, taken to the middle of nowhere, stripped of my identity and my self worth, and forced to live through a veritable hell for 48 days. I hated it, I hated my parents (still do), and hated myself. I wanted to kill myself every day I woke up under a tarp, freezing in the snow with nobody to cry to. I still have cold damage and can't feel the tips of my fingers or toes because of hypothermia. I can't count how many times I dreamed about you, cried myself to sleep about you, wanted to fucking die because half of my heart was ripped off and left with you..I literally was dead for almost seven weeks. I had no feelings other than pain, I had no motivation to wake up in the morning, I had no reason to live..except for a memory of an angel whom I had been taken from for no apparent reason. That memory of my angel let me wake up every morning, it let me hope, and it let me feel. I prayed twice aday literally, once every morning, and once every night; I prayed that you still loved me somewhere out there, I prayed that you hadn't found somebody else, I prayed you were safe, I prayed that I was coming home to you. That praying gave me the peace of mind I needed to wake up in the morning and keep living. I'm not extremely religious person, but I could't talk to you, and even so, my prayers were answered. I believe with all of my heart that we are meant to be together. You stayed true to me even when we couldn't talk for a long, long time. I stayed completely in love with you, even as I went through hell every day. To me, that is true love. I don't care what the movies say, what my parents say, what anybody says, I love you Morgen, and that's my heart speaking. You are my angel, my saving grace, my other half, my everything. I want to give you everything I have, my love, my body, my kisses, and my heart. I never want you to feel pain, or loss because of me ever again. The day I get back I'm going to spend hours just holding you and kissing you, and then I'm going to spend that night, all night, sleeping with you. I need to fall asleep knowing that I am holding the most perfect girl in the world. I missed that a hell of a lot, just being able to hold you Baby. I Love You Forever and with all of my heart Morgen, and I want you to never have to doubt that. I'm coming home, and by home I don't mean my old house, I mean to you. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!
Love, Your Chris<33