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I'm all alone here now. Friends have move on to bigger and better things. Or better yet, left me stranded. John is here, but i cant spend all my time with me. The fact that we've been together a Year and a Half frightens me. School has started and it just feels like another September. My two year deadline at smc is approaching and i have completed a little more then nothing, but nothing to run to schools with asking for a transfer. I don't know what to do, there are so many options. But they all are difficult. The Though makes me sick to my stomach to really dig deep into thought of my future. As of now I'm just disappointed in myself. Upset and at a crossroads. Lonely, Lost and sick of this routine.