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while i cant say that she likes me,
tiffany cheung and tori amos for the win.
really its been too long since ive listened to tori, and after an hour or so on live shows on youtube, i love her again.
someone on youtube says: "whats that shes donig?! shes not playing the piano with her fingers, shes playing it with her soul."
her hair, her voice, her attitude, her skill. i remember again everything that attracted me to her as a woman when i was a child. i listened to cornflake girl a few times and some other songs (live versions). have you ever had a moment where you just recall loving someone in the past? it sort of hits you like a warm, wet sponge heavy with water might hit you in the face or in the gut. at first you think 'ew...' but then you realize 'hey, that felt kinda good'. its that good, warm feeling. somehow, tori amos's music has always touched me in the right places inside. no matter how up or down or left or right i felt, i always wanted to hear her and i always wanted to sing along.
i miss those days. and that feeling. the best i hope for now is to remember things like that and maybe, if im really lucky, feel touched by someone i converse with. touching someone else is sort of half way there because i dont get that much out of it that often. what i want is kind of a spiritual sex. with tori it always felt like spiritual sex, even if it was only ever *really* masturbation.
yeah probably not the best analogy but it works. ah. i love life.. and alcohol.
gnight, folks.
tiffany cheung and tori amos for the win.
really its been too long since ive listened to tori, and after an hour or so on live shows on youtube, i love her again.
someone on youtube says: "whats that shes donig?! shes not playing the piano with her fingers, shes playing it with her soul."
her hair, her voice, her attitude, her skill. i remember again everything that attracted me to her as a woman when i was a child. i listened to cornflake girl a few times and some other songs (live versions). have you ever had a moment where you just recall loving someone in the past? it sort of hits you like a warm, wet sponge heavy with water might hit you in the face or in the gut. at first you think 'ew...' but then you realize 'hey, that felt kinda good'. its that good, warm feeling. somehow, tori amos's music has always touched me in the right places inside. no matter how up or down or left or right i felt, i always wanted to hear her and i always wanted to sing along.
i miss those days. and that feeling. the best i hope for now is to remember things like that and maybe, if im really lucky, feel touched by someone i converse with. touching someone else is sort of half way there because i dont get that much out of it that often. what i want is kind of a spiritual sex. with tori it always felt like spiritual sex, even if it was only ever *really* masturbation.
yeah probably not the best analogy but it works. ah. i love life.. and alcohol.
gnight, folks.