wine?
lambrusco is wine soda. damn, thats awesome. i think its my favorite right now.
im waiting for shanshan to come back. shes supposed to come back tomorrow, but im pretty sure she will be busy unpacking and sleeping. one thing that makes me a little sad is that i cannot read any of her blog entires for the summer (theyre all in chinese >.<). on the OTHER hand, though, that means she gets to tell me all about the stuff that happened while she was gone. i hope a little that she hasnt read the haruhi book so i can read it to her. well, if shes comfortable with that i guess. im not so sure that she would be up for something like that. most girls arent.
girls are much cuter when they smile. the kind of smile that tells you theyre happy.
one thing i seem to remember a lot, though, that wasnt a smile.... i dreamt about it last night...... it was a girl whose eyes were deep. as deep as the sea as she looked to the distance through me. i remember wanting to talk to her... to tell her that her look was beautiful. i remember wanting to know what she was thinking or thinking of. i think i shall forever regret my own shyness in a situation with a language barrier.
im working to fix that, but somehow, when i try to be more... myself.... i feel like my destructive streak starts to take over. the "evil" in me seems to be linked to social temptation. chaotic good is dangerous. i dont think many of my desires followed through would be considered "good". im not supposed to care... (given my alignment).. unfortunately i know i will care after the fact, when the people i want are missing.
life is so complex. study study.... study...
i keep wondering what to get shanshan as a returning present. she says when she thinks of la she thinks of magnets?. hmm.. thats a little telling, maybe... in a psychoanalytical sense. but where do i get a magnet that makes her think of la? .... really, where do i get anything that would make her think fondly....
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im waiting for shanshan to come back. shes supposed to come back tomorrow, but im pretty sure she will be busy unpacking and sleeping. one thing that makes me a little sad is that i cannot read any of her blog entires for the summer (theyre all in chinese >.<). on the OTHER hand, though, that means she gets to tell me all about the stuff that happened while she was gone. i hope a little that she hasnt read the haruhi book so i can read it to her. well, if shes comfortable with that i guess. im not so sure that she would be up for something like that. most girls arent.
girls are much cuter when they smile. the kind of smile that tells you theyre happy.
one thing i seem to remember a lot, though, that wasnt a smile.... i dreamt about it last night...... it was a girl whose eyes were deep. as deep as the sea as she looked to the distance through me. i remember wanting to talk to her... to tell her that her look was beautiful. i remember wanting to know what she was thinking or thinking of. i think i shall forever regret my own shyness in a situation with a language barrier.
im working to fix that, but somehow, when i try to be more... myself.... i feel like my destructive streak starts to take over. the "evil" in me seems to be linked to social temptation. chaotic good is dangerous. i dont think many of my desires followed through would be considered "good". im not supposed to care... (given my alignment).. unfortunately i know i will care after the fact, when the people i want are missing.
life is so complex. study study.... study...
i keep wondering what to get shanshan as a returning present. she says when she thinks of la she thinks of magnets?. hmm.. thats a little telling, maybe... in a psychoanalytical sense. but where do i get a magnet that makes her think of la? .... really, where do i get anything that would make her think fondly....
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