time away from time
it seems that no matter how much we talk, we can always talk more.
last night i was over giving some chicken soup and helping write a paper. we talked as much about random stuff as the paper, and i felt like we could do that forever.
there are times when im not sure what to make of this situation, but now, as ever yet, i retain high hopes (or at least, i try to).
when asked 'do you think you could fall in love with someone?', she pensively said "no". hm.
to remain slightly positive, she did also say 'this tastes better when i share it'. for some reason, she doubted why she said that. 'did i actually feel that', she thought, 'or did i feel it because it is what *he* would feel?'. shes not sure, and im not sure, but my intuition tells me that she did feel it on her own - the question is whether she will begin to feel it with everybody, or if i am somehow special.
i want to say 'im nobody special', but i have the desire to be special to someone... (dont we all?)
in any case, i tend to be quite a bit happier when we spend time together. i somehow think she shares that feeling.
ill be seeing her in a few minutes. my disposition remains in flux, though the tendency is toward cheerful as these conditions persist.
last night i was over giving some chicken soup and helping write a paper. we talked as much about random stuff as the paper, and i felt like we could do that forever.
there are times when im not sure what to make of this situation, but now, as ever yet, i retain high hopes (or at least, i try to).
when asked 'do you think you could fall in love with someone?', she pensively said "no". hm.
to remain slightly positive, she did also say 'this tastes better when i share it'. for some reason, she doubted why she said that. 'did i actually feel that', she thought, 'or did i feel it because it is what *he* would feel?'. shes not sure, and im not sure, but my intuition tells me that she did feel it on her own - the question is whether she will begin to feel it with everybody, or if i am somehow special.
i want to say 'im nobody special', but i have the desire to be special to someone... (dont we all?)
in any case, i tend to be quite a bit happier when we spend time together. i somehow think she shares that feeling.
ill be seeing her in a few minutes. my disposition remains in flux, though the tendency is toward cheerful as these conditions persist.