this job
sigh.
tomorrow is august.
my spirit had ballooned in costa rica. it's back to it's normal volume now that i am here, now that i spend vital hours of my life counting minutes and seconds and feeling every one crawl by at the pace days shouldn't crawl until you're lived-out sipping tea on your porch in the summer dreamily entertaining thoughts of your past and the futures of your legacy. ya. i googled "how to not let work crush your spirit" today.
i'm happily married and thrilled and haven't laughed so much in a long time, but if i allow myself to think about the 8-9 hours a day, 5 days a week, 4 weeks a month, 12 months a year, I spend here in this office doing God knows isn't much worth doing...well i'm trying to be okay with it and remember it's temporary. but that is so much of a life. so much of a life worth living. so much time that's valuable and potentially something entirely more.
so i'm trying. to both be grateful for what i do have and to make it better. i am. it's a slow process.
tomorrow is august.
my spirit had ballooned in costa rica. it's back to it's normal volume now that i am here, now that i spend vital hours of my life counting minutes and seconds and feeling every one crawl by at the pace days shouldn't crawl until you're lived-out sipping tea on your porch in the summer dreamily entertaining thoughts of your past and the futures of your legacy. ya. i googled "how to not let work crush your spirit" today.
i'm happily married and thrilled and haven't laughed so much in a long time, but if i allow myself to think about the 8-9 hours a day, 5 days a week, 4 weeks a month, 12 months a year, I spend here in this office doing God knows isn't much worth doing...well i'm trying to be okay with it and remember it's temporary. but that is so much of a life. so much of a life worth living. so much time that's valuable and potentially something entirely more.
so i'm trying. to both be grateful for what i do have and to make it better. i am. it's a slow process.