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[idontneedanyone]

so what you do is..
take what they say..relate it to yourself somehow.
then realize that, THAT must be the foundation of their sutters.

you are not the foundation.
you crumble too easy.

through these days. i have come to a remarkable realization of the self.
love.
if you despise my stupid stupid ramblings of love.
stop reading here.

love to me..now..
is merely a feeling.
though in that feeling it cannot be so simple.
i grant you that.
it could be the most intense feeling you have ever felt.
but that goes neck and neck with any other feeling that you are capable of feeling.

you can feel love.
like you can feel sad.
but never all at the same pace continuously.
those days with angel.
those days with matt.
i felt love.
the sort of feeling that rushes through your body..well that one is lust.
but feeling love,
you must feel comfort.
you must feel safe.
and you must feel freedom.

which you know are all in VERY close relation to each other.
i dont think that you can feel comfort, safety, and freedom all at once for a continuous amount of time.
i do believe you may feel it all at once for...oh at most...two days.
and that love will be so pure and true.
nothing but good intent.
then. it fails you. like every other emotion..
sadness cannot last forever.
happiness cannot last forever.
content cannot last forever.

unless you are buddhist. but that is getting technical.

so we all must simply accept that..
love. is not for everyone.
the above, is how i see it. and face it.
so i guess this means love love. isnt for me.