i am not a slave to a god that doesnt exist.
the symphony was lovely. truly.
i just wanted to let everyone know.
alissa- you are so beautiful and smart. i miss you and love you very much. i love you
alli- im so sick of you! no im joking. you get me. or you pretend to very well. you help me believe that i am not so stupid. you are one of the few people that i can stand all of the time. i love you
angel- you inspire me. you make me feel real. i really think you are a brilliant person and one of the most beautiful people i have EVER met. i will never meet anyone else like you and im okay with that because i have you. and i only have one question..."will you still need me, will you feed me when im sixty-four?" i love you
austin- you are the first person i ever connected with. thank you for knowing that i wasnt shallow when no one ever tried to care. you were the first person to ever have a real lasting impact on my life thank you. i love you
bryant- i miss you too, and i think you are one of the most genuine people i have ever met. thank you so much for being there for me no matter how much it hurt you. i love you
cari- im not going to lie to you. we all have our ups and downs and i am sorry that i was never really truly open to the emotional side of you. dont let the others get you down. i love you
casey- i miss you dearly. i love you
chris- you always make me smile! i love you
chris- i never regret it, thank you. i love you
chris- i am speechless..in the bad kind of way.
damien- i miss you so much. you are someone i can usually relate to and i love that because i dont even have to try! i never really get to talk to you anymore. its ok though. i wish you the best in everything and anything you do. you give me butterflies. i love you
edward- hahahahah. i love you
eddie- you are my favorite sancho! i will probably never ever talk to you again though. i love you
emily- you make me okay. you have been there through a lot with me. and i for you. and i acctually care. you make me feel like a real girl! i love you
jake- i dont know you well..so i really dont know what to say. you are sweet and seem genuine and i hope you really are. if not i will be let down. but i think i have the right to be skeptical right? i love you
juan- im so sorry
kathleen- you were always a really good friend. i could trust you. and you are real. i admire that. but i dont want to be your friend or your enemy. so i guess we should just pretend as if we never met. i love you.
kim bo- wow, you are real. you are beautiful. you are smart. you are talented. you are my favorite person. you are the greatest writer. you are in touch. you are self-centered(hah). you are kim and i dont think i could praise you any more. you know that i love you. i love you
kimmy- everyone moves on, but you did it sooner than i would have liked. i treasure you. i love you
little j- you are the best father i know. you are beautiful. i love you
marc- you make me so happy! i love it. i love you
matt- thank you for being there when i needed it the most. i love you
matt- yeah this is yours. i have so much to say to you with such little reasoning. i could never say i regretted knowing you because that is a lie. i could say all the things i want to say. but i dont know now.if it was ever real. if it was i would say that i never hated you. and that i still dont. i could say that i REALLY loved every word we shared and every single emotion you made me feel. "i usually call just to say i love you" all those times i called you right back after we hung up...that is what i was trying to say. but i am glad to say now that i am happy that we dont talk much anymore. i think i had attached myself to a part of you that wouldnt allow me to be me. i love you?
meggie- you have saved me so many times. thank you for being you and thank you for getting me really fucking stoned on my first 4:20, and thank you for not being like everyone else when i needed to know all the world was not wrong. i love you
monica- i miss you more than ever. i love you
roger- thank you for seeing me.
sam- you will always be my favorite boy. i could say that i dont like the change...but no one gives a damn not even me. i love the person you are. i love you
stephen- you are a wonderful true friend. and you always make me feel like i matter. thats a hard thing to do. i love you
taylor- you have been there since kindergarden. you have changed so much in so many ways. but i am still here and you are still there, THAT is amazing. be careful. i love you
there might be more to come..but it is four a.m. and i am going to fall asleep.
oh yes and i feel that it is pathetic that i have to beg for comments. this is for a reason...and i dont give a dman who the fuck you are. get over your laziness...your pridefulness or whatever it is..and leave me a fucking comment..and i know you have something to say because if you are my friend you always have something to say...i have it no other way.
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?=guess
=never ending
i just wanted to let everyone know.
alissa- you are so beautiful and smart. i miss you and love you very much. i love you
alli- im so sick of you! no im joking. you get me. or you pretend to very well. you help me believe that i am not so stupid. you are one of the few people that i can stand all of the time. i love you
angel- you inspire me. you make me feel real. i really think you are a brilliant person and one of the most beautiful people i have EVER met. i will never meet anyone else like you and im okay with that because i have you. and i only have one question..."will you still need me, will you feed me when im sixty-four?" i love you
austin- you are the first person i ever connected with. thank you for knowing that i wasnt shallow when no one ever tried to care. you were the first person to ever have a real lasting impact on my life thank you. i love you
bryant- i miss you too, and i think you are one of the most genuine people i have ever met. thank you so much for being there for me no matter how much it hurt you. i love you
cari- im not going to lie to you. we all have our ups and downs and i am sorry that i was never really truly open to the emotional side of you. dont let the others get you down. i love you
casey- i miss you dearly. i love you
chris- you always make me smile! i love you
chris- i never regret it, thank you. i love you
chris- i am speechless..in the bad kind of way.
damien- i miss you so much. you are someone i can usually relate to and i love that because i dont even have to try! i never really get to talk to you anymore. its ok though. i wish you the best in everything and anything you do. you give me butterflies. i love you
edward- hahahahah. i love you
eddie- you are my favorite sancho! i will probably never ever talk to you again though. i love you
emily- you make me okay. you have been there through a lot with me. and i for you. and i acctually care. you make me feel like a real girl! i love you
jake- i dont know you well..so i really dont know what to say. you are sweet and seem genuine and i hope you really are. if not i will be let down. but i think i have the right to be skeptical right? i love you
juan- im so sorry
kathleen- you were always a really good friend. i could trust you. and you are real. i admire that. but i dont want to be your friend or your enemy. so i guess we should just pretend as if we never met. i love you.
kim bo- wow, you are real. you are beautiful. you are smart. you are talented. you are my favorite person. you are the greatest writer. you are in touch. you are self-centered(hah). you are kim and i dont think i could praise you any more. you know that i love you. i love you
kimmy- everyone moves on, but you did it sooner than i would have liked. i treasure you. i love you
little j- you are the best father i know. you are beautiful. i love you
marc- you make me so happy! i love it. i love you
matt- thank you for being there when i needed it the most. i love you
matt- yeah this is yours. i have so much to say to you with such little reasoning. i could never say i regretted knowing you because that is a lie. i could say all the things i want to say. but i dont know now.if it was ever real. if it was i would say that i never hated you. and that i still dont. i could say that i REALLY loved every word we shared and every single emotion you made me feel. "i usually call just to say i love you" all those times i called you right back after we hung up...that is what i was trying to say. but i am glad to say now that i am happy that we dont talk much anymore. i think i had attached myself to a part of you that wouldnt allow me to be me. i love you?
meggie- you have saved me so many times. thank you for being you and thank you for getting me really fucking stoned on my first 4:20, and thank you for not being like everyone else when i needed to know all the world was not wrong. i love you
monica- i miss you more than ever. i love you
roger- thank you for seeing me.
sam- you will always be my favorite boy. i could say that i dont like the change...but no one gives a damn not even me. i love the person you are. i love you
stephen- you are a wonderful true friend. and you always make me feel like i matter. thats a hard thing to do. i love you
taylor- you have been there since kindergarden. you have changed so much in so many ways. but i am still here and you are still there, THAT is amazing. be careful. i love you
there might be more to come..but it is four a.m. and i am going to fall asleep.
oh yes and i feel that it is pathetic that i have to beg for comments. this is for a reason...and i dont give a dman who the fuck you are. get over your laziness...your pridefulness or whatever it is..and leave me a fucking comment..and i know you have something to say because if you are my friend you always have something to say...i have it no other way.
.=end
?=guess
=never ending