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Hey there,
I am glad you chose to read this blog. But basically it’s to tell you that, sadly, I will not be going back to continue college at CLU. (Sorry, I keep leaving you Hilda, like seventh grade, lol.) I didn’t decide this until very recently. It was hard to pick, but I realized that I was basically paying $34grand for dorm life. I loved my new roommates, so that made it even harder. And with the scholarship they kept, even though I didn’t do so dandy last semester, I think the school is a rip off. That’s kind of stupid, so I decided to no longer make that pricey mistake. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I could afford it and all, but I rather pay less for a better education. And I have made a deal with my parents that the money they are saving will go to my dental school fund, since I will be paying for that myself. Plus, everyone knows I haven’t liked CLU since I applied. I had that time of a façade of happiness, but like a lot of CLU, it was essentially fake. It was just bound to happen that I didn’t return; but no one knew that it was going to be this soon. I was looking forward to another year with you all, especially my new roomies and those lovely people I became good friends with within the last month of school. But I promise to make trips out to TO and spend plenty of nights being a nomad. I know there are plenty of futons just waiting for me to use them, lol. I already miss you dearly so I don’t know how I am going to get through this.
Anyways, for what I plan to do, I am going to attend CSUN. Yes, that’s right, I am going to live at home and go to a Cal State. I never thought this would happen, if anyone remembers how opposed to this idea I was, I can imagine how shocked you are. And to top it off I won’t be applying to transfer to USC or UCLA, its going to be my last change of schools. Plus, CSUN has a good bio/pre-dental program. In the end, I hope it’s worth it.
But no matter what, I am really sad not to be going back to school with everyone. And no matter what anyone says, this choice was not based on the actions of a certain few that shall remain nameless. (I actually wanted to go back to show that I can deal with it, don’t forget I dealt with shit for over a month). They just made me realize how I hate going to a school where the majority of students are white kids…or really white washed… and don’t quite understand that people are different and they have yet to accept that that is in fact possible. I am not saying that about all the white kids, it’s just the few I encountered. Calling yourself liberal doesn’t mean you accept everyone, it doesn’t make you open-minded. Whatever, I am done with that and I decided that I rather not deal with the whole legal process (like I promised them) in making these kids realize that there are consequences to their actions and words. Done with that shit. But I am not running away from a problem, I am just not ruining my future to prove I am better than a few people.
So everyone going to school in the SFV, aka CSUN, Pierce, and Valley, I will definitely be living at home next year. So you know what that means, hang out whenever possible.
je t’aime. ♥
nadine.