everything's changing
so yea, during my last week in bakersfield I've realized alot of things (I know, i know, lots of realizations lately). Basically, everyone has moved on. I mean, what did i expect? life to stop, and then start again when i came back? I feel really jealous. All of the people at my old innout, how they are such good friends and I am no longer part of it. I don't know why i make it such an obligation to come back and see everyone, when they don't really give a damn about me. I went and visited my old high school and saw the new yearbook they are making; new memories and new layouts. Even the pit has a new show and music. Life in Bakersfield has moved on and im no longer part of it. In addition to this, I have changed. Coming back to high school and my home, i remember who i am, or was. Its like, for a second, i forgot.
Also, I'm jealous of all my friends back in fullerton, of all the fun they are having, and i am missing out. So I'm really torn.
well, i go back today. this should be interesting. I'm looking forward to getting to know all the new orientation leaders during our retreat and going on the 'price is right.'
oh geez.
Also, I'm jealous of all my friends back in fullerton, of all the fun they are having, and i am missing out. So I'm really torn.
well, i go back today. this should be interesting. I'm looking forward to getting to know all the new orientation leaders during our retreat and going on the 'price is right.'
oh geez.