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I just went through my old livejournal. It was depressing. It left me with this sour feeling in my stomach. Justin really messed me up relationship wise. Reading all those posts just made me remember everything. All the lonely nights, the time spent crying, the rebounds (and there were plenty), the begging, the pleading, the ups, the downs, and back and forths. Everything. Ugh.
Giving your entire being to someone and having them trash it was the worst feeling in the world. And it took me a LONG time to actually regain my trust towards males and actually be able to have a real relationship.
Alan and I had somewhat of a rocky start, but reading those posts makes me appreciate so much more the wonderful man that I have.
I just can't seemto shake this feeling though. I can honestly say, reading all of those things has made me sick to my stomach.
Giving your entire being to someone and having them trash it was the worst feeling in the world. And it took me a LONG time to actually regain my trust towards males and actually be able to have a real relationship.
Alan and I had somewhat of a rocky start, but reading those posts makes me appreciate so much more the wonderful man that I have.
I just can't seemto shake this feeling though. I can honestly say, reading all of those things has made me sick to my stomach.