My interpretation of SPN 6.01 (Exile On Main St.)
So this is it. After four months of waiting, the boys are finally back in town. Hellatus wasn't as bad as it was in previous years for me... thank god.
And now the boys are back, another year is about to start and no matter what Season Six will bring along, I am excited, I am happy and I can't wait to see where the journey ends. If it ends ( Read more... )
And now the boys are back, another year is about to start and no matter what Season Six will bring along, I am excited, I am happy and I can't wait to see where the journey ends. If it ends ( Read more... )
Couldn't have been easy, but I love her for saying that it was the best year of her life.
That's actually something that took me by surprise! I didn't know how to take that comment of hers because for some reason I can't imagine that it is true (in a "I mean it with all my heart"-way). It just seems way too fairytale-like to me, you know? Maybe she knew that that's what Dean needed to hear? Or rather, she knows how much a comment like would mean to him and how much he HAS to hear it. And by that she can bind him further to his new family - and I really don't mean this in a bad way! Any woman smart enough would (or should) have done the very same.
But I can also see where you're coming from. I guess I just find it really hard to really imagine the time-span of a year. Of course there must have been a LOT that happened. And maybe she didn't mean it in a "I can't live without you" sense... and it's all about the fact that her son finally has a father figure (and we all know that Dean has been a father ever since he was four years old - he aces that role), that she doesn't have to be alone anymore and albeit the fact that Dean is broken and in constant misery, the good parts still overrule all the possible hardships. Seeing it that way, I think the 'best year of my life' comment does make a bit more sense, heh...
ack, I've got a lot more to say but I gotta catch my bus! My lecture starts in half an hour. Stay tuned, I'll get back to you tonight ;D
PS: I can't proofread this anymore so you'll have to deal with all the spelling mistakes. byeeee
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Because I never thought about that sentence in a fairy-tale like way. I actually very much took it as what she said: the best year of her life.
Not that she loves him more than words, or any of that schmoopy crap, but that Dean had given her what she wanted most of all: a father for Ben.
When you think about that such a gorgeous woman would STILL be single, after all this time - apparently since after having Ben, when you think about "The kids are alright" - she must have found only losers before, if she ever really looked. Maybe she'd unconsciously looking for Dean all the time? But who knows that, I wouldn't judge. Maybe she was married and her husband died. *shrugs*
So I think having Dean gave her not only a father for Ben and a fine man in her bed, but ALSO someone who needs her and who she can take care of. And we all know how much females crave to take care of Dean, right? *wink*
I can imagine that their relationship is pretty much one of mutual benefits. I'm not saying Dean doesn't love her, or she him. But it probably hadn't started that way. They've known each other for one week in bed, some days while Ben was snatched and one short moment in a doorway. They COULDN'T love each other then.
But she got to know him, his issues, his soul as much as he let her see. And she stuck with him and he stuck with her. So it might have been born from necessity and mutual loneliness. It grew into something more. Like some couples that are forced into marriage actually make it work, and one day they get to know the other so much that it might not be love, but still enough emotion and affection to stay together to the end.
So for her, the best year of her life brought what? A handsome man who loves Ben and gives him a father, a considerate lover who isn't shy to help in the house, a protector who would do close-to-everything to keep them save and who also saved the world. Someone who needs her and doesn't demand more than some affection and a place to stay.
Honestly? Who wouldn't think that worth a few issues? I'd take that, no hesitation!
And I think... I can imagine that just like Dean she might have been fearing that it wouldn't last. That someday, something would happen and Dean would leave. The resigned way she sat on the steps, trying to make herself small and not touch him when he sat down next to her... She was trying not to show that it hurt her, but she wasn't surprised.
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Concerning Dean (because we can't NOT discuss this): Jensen was absolutely, unbelievably brilliant in this episode, wasn't he?? Gosh, if it weren't for him, the epi wouldn't have been half as good ( then again, Dean as a character wouldn't be DEAN without Jensen, but still - I can't gush over him enough, haha). There was so so so much non-verbal communication going on and we all know how damn hard it is to actually fake that part of communication. And he just... nails it. In everything. His eyes and his facial expressions especially! I once asked myself what it is that makes a person a good actor and the only thing I could come up with is "they're a good actor if they can make their eyes lie". I'd watch that episode over and over and over again just to see (and feel) him act again and again. Of course it hurts because it's Dean and empathy makes it as good as impossible not to suffer with and for him - but it's still strangely fulfilling (or calming?), in a very masochistic way. haha. Do you know what I mean?
[and I didn't mention this in my review because, of course, I have to remain objective and all that... not with you, I reckon, hehe]
What I don't really like about his silence is that he KNEW how much Dean was hurting. He knew, and he still didn't 'put him out of his misery'. Sure, he had his reasons. But couldn't he pretend to get text from an angel (or Crowley?) who said that Sam was dead, but not in Hell? Would that really been too much work? Just sayin'...
Yes, I hear you. I guess that's where human fallibility plays a very huge part. "I should have done that, so he would have suffered less" - and in the end human emotions get in the way and make it impossible for you to think and act rationally. (remaining silent or ignoring an issue often works as the infamous ~easy way out~... not even Bobby's immune to that. Unfortunately)
So I think having Dean gave her not only a father for Ben and a fine man in her bed, but ALSO someone who needs her and who she can take care of. And we all know how much females crave to take care of Dean, right? *wink*
hahahaha, true that! :D
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That makes ALOT of sense! Thank you! I guess, I just didn't like the thought of them being in love because I couldn't imagine a world where someone as damaged as Dean could possibly contribute as much to a relationship that's based on the feeling alone. Then again, I was worried that show would turn their story into a shmoop-fest to begin with, so I think it sorta worked as a self-fulfilling prophecy.
But I really like the idea that their love is based on trust, understanding and co-dependance. That it is not LOVE per se, but more a mutual connection on the basis of different circumstances, of need which is held together by Ben's position as their 'son' ( or rather their responsibility). Because I believe that this is definitely much stronger and deeper than love (in a sole romantic sense) on its own.
Today I met a girl from Russia who studies the same subject as I do (I changed to Psychology, by the way, heh) and she told me that she moved to Basel in August because she got married to her (Swiss) husband. She's 20 years old... even a little younger than I am. When I asked her how she met him, she replied that they met in the subway in Moscow a couple of times, they hung out for three days straight and then he had to go back to Switzerland. Two months later he visisted her in Russia again and asked her to marry him because, apparently, he couldn't imagine a life without her. And yeah, I guess some people believe in true love or love at first sight and all that - but for me, when I listened to her story, I was genuinely shocked. It just doesn't sound like love to me, you know? Not the overpowering, all-withstanding kind. The entire situation just made me feel really uneasy since I can't imagine anything but a very ugly ending to their relationship. Who knows, maybe I'm wrong (I hope I am) - I can't, however, say that it would come as a surprise to me if she'd end up alone in a foreign country =/
--> that's basically the complete opposite of the depth Dean and Lisa's relationship represent. Which is doubly awesome because it is fictional but it still feels so REAL. ♥
And GOD. The new episode was AMAZING. Jesus Christ. I get exhausted just thinking about it!
Have I mentioned recently that I love our show? The things you learn... phew.
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Yes, absolutely! And now, after that ending, I can even more confidently say that it isn't LOVE that kept Dean with Lisa and Ben, but more affection, duty and hope that maybe he could do it.
And I like Lisa even more, now.
She is a smart cookie, realizing that you can't bind the wind (ooooooh, I can do schmoop!) and that Dean might be good at faking it (sometimes) but that in the end, he just isn't that kind of man.
And that it's a good thing.
Oh, please, don't stop gushing about Jensen on my account! He's just that awesome. "making the eyes lie" is a good way of putting it.
I've recently watched Dark Angel, and I can honestly say that without Jensen as Alec, the show would have really sucked.
Jessica Alba can't do more than look pretty and that guy in the wheelchair was pretty good but he didn't DO much. So the character of Alec (Jensen) was just awesome, cause he added pizazz to a mediocre show (with a good storyline, though). And Jensen NAILED that character.
If you're looking for youngDean, go watch that show. All's there that you need.
>That girl from Russia... Well, 20 is not the most reliable age to have your future already written. And maybe it is real love and it works out, or maybe not. But considering what I hear about Russia as a place to live long-term, I think she could have met a worse fate than be married to a Swiss. As long as he treats her ok... Just sayin'.
Oh, psychology? Cool, I could use that. I've got a story right now and I might need some ideas on the aftermath, maybe. So hey, pretty handy :-D
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