Now I Know
welp, i know how it feels once again. where your stomach kinda gets its own rush of excitement. but not the good kind. and your mouth just automatically goes to the frown position. i guess i deserve it. i didnt treat her how she deserved....like a queen. i guess its my own fault i feel this shitty about it. i mean i havent seen her in forever. its rare we can actually talk. i guess i just got myself excited about me leaving this hell hole. there was a thought of me and her being together again. and me having the opportunity to treat her the way she deserves....like a queen. well, i hope shes happy. im going to go immerse myself in something that will make me feel better. at least for a little while anyway. and no...its not coke.