lets see...
im not really sure how much of the last few weeks im going to put in here. but i just feel like i need to write. so bare with me.
work has been tough. working everyday will 9 isnt what i call KICKASS. but, im getting promoted again next month. so thats well....more money. im also turning 22 next month and thats....a birthday. but, my best friend and someone who ive come to love very much left about a week ago. and im having a real tough time dealing with it. even when im busy its not busy enough to get my mind off of it. its just gnawing at my insides. so thats been my life the last 2 weeks. i started drinking quite a bit again. even on nights where the responsible thing to do would be not drink. and it would seem im just trying to find anything i can put in my body to get my mind off things. and im starting to think that maybe thats not too healthy. well, i think ive rambled on enough.
i never said id lie in wait forever. if i died wed be together. i cant always just forget her. but she could try.
work has been tough. working everyday will 9 isnt what i call KICKASS. but, im getting promoted again next month. so thats well....more money. im also turning 22 next month and thats....a birthday. but, my best friend and someone who ive come to love very much left about a week ago. and im having a real tough time dealing with it. even when im busy its not busy enough to get my mind off of it. its just gnawing at my insides. so thats been my life the last 2 weeks. i started drinking quite a bit again. even on nights where the responsible thing to do would be not drink. and it would seem im just trying to find anything i can put in my body to get my mind off things. and im starting to think that maybe thats not too healthy. well, i think ive rambled on enough.
i never said id lie in wait forever. if i died wed be together. i cant always just forget her. but she could try.