I just need to think about this
I was talking to my good friend marc, with a c that is. We were talking about my biggest fear ... attachment.
This is what was said.
There is something wrong with every relationship, since nobody is of course perfect, and I think that I just go above and beyond to find flaws because I am actually afraid of liking someone too much. Like I will die if I do anything close to becoming attached. Mark agreed with me and said that I don't intentionally do it, but I make small issues bigger than they already should and that is my sure sign of fear.
But I have been known to really not let anything bother me, so I really need to stop making a relationship harder than it is and stop being so judgemental. It's crazy.
So Mark, I am sorry if I act like a crazy fucking maniac sometimes, or I blow things out of proportion... It is only me being afraid... in a very unnecessary way... please ignore it and don't provoke it.
This is what was said.
There is something wrong with every relationship, since nobody is of course perfect, and I think that I just go above and beyond to find flaws because I am actually afraid of liking someone too much. Like I will die if I do anything close to becoming attached. Mark agreed with me and said that I don't intentionally do it, but I make small issues bigger than they already should and that is my sure sign of fear.
But I have been known to really not let anything bother me, so I really need to stop making a relationship harder than it is and stop being so judgemental. It's crazy.
So Mark, I am sorry if I act like a crazy fucking maniac sometimes, or I blow things out of proportion... It is only me being afraid... in a very unnecessary way... please ignore it and don't provoke it.