fuck them
I feel like I just can't win lately. I go too far overboard with trying to get everything in order with game and I'm accused of taking too much on myself and then wanting the glory for it. All I wanted is for an acknowledgement that apparently I have to do everything in that game. But I'm just one person, fighting against a chauvinistic douchebag loudmouth who has made it his personal goal to put me in what I'm sure he thinks is my place and a wishy washy invisible mute. Of course it has to be the mute who's in charge.
So, today the loudmouth decided to make it his business to question xp spends I approved for someone and then continue haranguing about letting some of my players act like sabbat and questioning whether they had the lores to know the most basic of things I've never heard questioned before. Seriously. Seriously, get off my fucking back you evil inbred muppet with no laugh track. Good damn thing I don't answer to him.
Guess I can now return his comment of "I couldn't work under you if you were hst" with the same shitty honesty. Although really, i'd be more likely to say "fuck off you pox-ridden manslut with 4/100th of a brain cell, you will only get me to abandon the players who begged me to be their st when you pry my copy of laws out of my cold dead hand... Bitch."
I can't stand the outright lies that come out of his mouth, but then he feels that he's entitled to question me. I've got almost every player in the game begging me to run things for them, even background stuff, when he just sits around. I provided him with painstakingly made character sheets and item cards for NPC antagonists for a combat scene last game to run and at the end of the night someone ELSE handed them to me and said, "he wanted me to give these to you, he didn't use them."
I spent some of today avoiding thinking about it. I was just too mad to really respond appropriately.
I have pretty much decided that because I don't think its any of his business, I'm going to do to them what they do to me, which is just not respond to it. My passive aggressiveness and my sense of right/justice are warring with each other. When I was told that all the work I do is unnecessary and no one wants it, it really sucked. I don't think its true, but I stepped back anyway and stopped doing the tons of extra stuff. I think I wanted to force them to say that I really was needed, but the big problem is I am trying to get kudos from people incapable of it.
I need to find a way to apologize to the players I may have hurt or ignored by being passive aggressive. Maybe the best way is just to make it up to them by being their st as best I can and not letting loudmouth flip my switch again. I finally stood up for myself before then and really said how I felt. When the other sts shot me down I switched right back to passive aggressive and started keeping my head down.
I'm still not going to respond though. He won't be at next game, so I'm partially avoiding the issue, but I think that responding to him would be more than he deserves. I'm taking the easy and high road. I know its 90% justification, but I'm okay with that. If he brings it up again, I will just mention that I decline to discuss this topic. By their actions and wishes we are not a team. If they wish to put something to vote on staff and place restrictions or requirements on me, they are welcome to do so. Other than that I will do my job as I see fit and for the enjoyment of my players, supporting them.
Time to stop sweating the council stuff and st stuff and do the right thing. Kick ass.
So, today the loudmouth decided to make it his business to question xp spends I approved for someone and then continue haranguing about letting some of my players act like sabbat and questioning whether they had the lores to know the most basic of things I've never heard questioned before. Seriously. Seriously, get off my fucking back you evil inbred muppet with no laugh track. Good damn thing I don't answer to him.
Guess I can now return his comment of "I couldn't work under you if you were hst" with the same shitty honesty. Although really, i'd be more likely to say "fuck off you pox-ridden manslut with 4/100th of a brain cell, you will only get me to abandon the players who begged me to be their st when you pry my copy of laws out of my cold dead hand... Bitch."
I can't stand the outright lies that come out of his mouth, but then he feels that he's entitled to question me. I've got almost every player in the game begging me to run things for them, even background stuff, when he just sits around. I provided him with painstakingly made character sheets and item cards for NPC antagonists for a combat scene last game to run and at the end of the night someone ELSE handed them to me and said, "he wanted me to give these to you, he didn't use them."
I spent some of today avoiding thinking about it. I was just too mad to really respond appropriately.
I have pretty much decided that because I don't think its any of his business, I'm going to do to them what they do to me, which is just not respond to it. My passive aggressiveness and my sense of right/justice are warring with each other. When I was told that all the work I do is unnecessary and no one wants it, it really sucked. I don't think its true, but I stepped back anyway and stopped doing the tons of extra stuff. I think I wanted to force them to say that I really was needed, but the big problem is I am trying to get kudos from people incapable of it.
I need to find a way to apologize to the players I may have hurt or ignored by being passive aggressive. Maybe the best way is just to make it up to them by being their st as best I can and not letting loudmouth flip my switch again. I finally stood up for myself before then and really said how I felt. When the other sts shot me down I switched right back to passive aggressive and started keeping my head down.
I'm still not going to respond though. He won't be at next game, so I'm partially avoiding the issue, but I think that responding to him would be more than he deserves. I'm taking the easy and high road. I know its 90% justification, but I'm okay with that. If he brings it up again, I will just mention that I decline to discuss this topic. By their actions and wishes we are not a team. If they wish to put something to vote on staff and place restrictions or requirements on me, they are welcome to do so. Other than that I will do my job as I see fit and for the enjoyment of my players, supporting them.
Time to stop sweating the council stuff and st stuff and do the right thing. Kick ass.