I have nothing else to do
I arrived at Chicago O'Hare at 4:30pm today...it's now 10:40 and my plane just recently left LAS VEGAS and will not arrive here until at least 1am.
I feel like I'm never going to get to Scotland! I'm still not entirely excited and I'm pretty sure that if I ever get on a plane, I'll be a lot more excited. Sadly all it's been so far is a lot of sitting on my ass in an airport missing my parents, friends, and Adam.
It's unfortunate that everyone's busy and can't chat because I'm fairly certain I'm going to throw myself against the wall if I sit here much longer. Oh I hate flying.
As expected, I miss everyone horribly and I'm still in the US....pathetic I know. I was talking about this with Adam last night and asking him if he was scared when he left for China and he said a little bit but he was mostly just really excited. And I decided that it's much harder for me to jump into new situations. I don't really like being dumped into a situation where I know no one and have no idea what to expect. I thrive on set plans and facts.
This is by far the scariest thing I've done yet in my life, which is probably sad but whatever. I know I'm going to have an amazing time once I get ther eand get settled in but right now, sitting in the airport, it's all I can do not to cry and call my parents or Adam repeatedly until one of them picks up.
I'm not veyr good at this whole independence thing. I'm not very good at being alone either. I suppose those are the same thing but whatever. I really want to be independent and know that I can succeed and be happy all on my own but at the same time, I find it nearly impossible to be away for any period of time. I need hugs, kisses, cuddling, and face-to-face conversations to feel connected. Email and phone jsut don't cut it. An email can't console me when I'm feeling especially homesick, a voice across the miles can't either.
*Sigh* I'm nto making this easier for myself. I guess I'm done.
If anyone happens to read this within the next two hours, SKYPE ME!!! I'm just sitting in the O'Hare airport.
I feel like I'm never going to get to Scotland! I'm still not entirely excited and I'm pretty sure that if I ever get on a plane, I'll be a lot more excited. Sadly all it's been so far is a lot of sitting on my ass in an airport missing my parents, friends, and Adam.
It's unfortunate that everyone's busy and can't chat because I'm fairly certain I'm going to throw myself against the wall if I sit here much longer. Oh I hate flying.
As expected, I miss everyone horribly and I'm still in the US....pathetic I know. I was talking about this with Adam last night and asking him if he was scared when he left for China and he said a little bit but he was mostly just really excited. And I decided that it's much harder for me to jump into new situations. I don't really like being dumped into a situation where I know no one and have no idea what to expect. I thrive on set plans and facts.
This is by far the scariest thing I've done yet in my life, which is probably sad but whatever. I know I'm going to have an amazing time once I get ther eand get settled in but right now, sitting in the airport, it's all I can do not to cry and call my parents or Adam repeatedly until one of them picks up.
I'm not veyr good at this whole independence thing. I'm not very good at being alone either. I suppose those are the same thing but whatever. I really want to be independent and know that I can succeed and be happy all on my own but at the same time, I find it nearly impossible to be away for any period of time. I need hugs, kisses, cuddling, and face-to-face conversations to feel connected. Email and phone jsut don't cut it. An email can't console me when I'm feeling especially homesick, a voice across the miles can't either.
*Sigh* I'm nto making this easier for myself. I guess I'm done.
If anyone happens to read this within the next two hours, SKYPE ME!!! I'm just sitting in the O'Hare airport.