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i just realized something.. i think everyone has so many opinions of me, none of which make sense to ME. i think i give off a completely different aura than i mean to. because often when someone says something about me, in passing, i will think 'what?? they really think i'm like that??' and i'm always so surprised. yeewow.
for example, people seem to think i'm cold and distant, in reality i'm just ridiculously shy (at times)
other people think i'm very confidant and maybe some even think i'm stuck-up, but i'm actually sort of insecure
some think i'm overly 'mature' or 'stern' and 'can't joke around'.. actually i'm just a stupid little kid sometimes and i'm so terrified of growing up that i try to act like i already have so i won't have to deal with it
another common myth is that i 'never like to talk about myself' ..i just don't know how. communication is not one of my strongs points. at ALL. i'm a damn good listener, but i don't know how to talk. not really.
here's another one: 'she doesn't APPROVE of me' .. approve of you? huh? is it really my right to JUDGE you? this one boggles my mind the most of all. i approve of all my friends, even if i make fun of you or am sarcastic towards you, i'm just kidding around. and i like spending time with all of you too. a lot. and i don't do it nearly as much as i'd like to.
i'm not as hard to please as i seem.
so bwah! take that!
i feel ridiculous now. it's late. i feel sooo.. fifteeeen. shut UP emily.