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I'm not going to get any sleep tonight.
How nice, but I'll sleep great tomorrow. So I guess I just have to realize that I have a sleep pattern. I wish I had a better pattern.
My Brother gave me three books today:
Slaughter House - Five by Kurt Vonnegut (seems interesting, about Dresden in WWII)
Demian by Hermann Hesse
&Sophocles: The Thebian Plays by King Oedipus, Oedipus at Colonus, & Antigone (translated by E.F. Watling
I'm glad he thinks of me before taking them somewhere else. But, honestly, where else would he take them?
Today was an okay day. Jimmy came over, we did nothing. Sorry Jimmy, my house is terribly boring. I got to clean though and do laundry, so I accomplished some things. I still have really old chemistry to do. x.x
Why did my happiness have to be so transient?
It's not completely gone...but it's slowly fading. I hope it can fade backwards.
I need to stop beating myself up, I think that's the problem again. I stopped for a while, because I stopped caring as much, but now I'm back to caring too much and I'm making myself sad again. I hope it doesn't get bad. Uh, I just need to stop, fucking stop.
What a fitting song for the moment, 'Asleep' is over and my shuffle went to Copeland_testing the strong ones. Stop testing me, I'm not strong, I'm weak. Incredibly weak. I don't even know who I'm telling to stop testing me. I think I need to figure out some things before much else can happen/before much else should happen.
Sometimes I feel
like I am drunk behind the wheel
the wheel of possibility
however it may roll
give it a spin
see if it can somehow factor in
you know there's always more than one way
to say exactly what you mean to say...
...so quiet but I finally woke up
How nice, but I'll sleep great tomorrow. So I guess I just have to realize that I have a sleep pattern. I wish I had a better pattern.
My Brother gave me three books today:
Slaughter House - Five by Kurt Vonnegut (seems interesting, about Dresden in WWII)
Demian by Hermann Hesse
&Sophocles: The Thebian Plays by King Oedipus, Oedipus at Colonus, & Antigone (translated by E.F. Watling
I'm glad he thinks of me before taking them somewhere else. But, honestly, where else would he take them?
Today was an okay day. Jimmy came over, we did nothing. Sorry Jimmy, my house is terribly boring. I got to clean though and do laundry, so I accomplished some things. I still have really old chemistry to do. x.x
Why did my happiness have to be so transient?
It's not completely gone...but it's slowly fading. I hope it can fade backwards.
I need to stop beating myself up, I think that's the problem again. I stopped for a while, because I stopped caring as much, but now I'm back to caring too much and I'm making myself sad again. I hope it doesn't get bad. Uh, I just need to stop, fucking stop.
What a fitting song for the moment, 'Asleep' is over and my shuffle went to Copeland_testing the strong ones. Stop testing me, I'm not strong, I'm weak. Incredibly weak. I don't even know who I'm telling to stop testing me. I think I need to figure out some things before much else can happen/before much else should happen.
Sometimes I feel
like I am drunk behind the wheel
the wheel of possibility
however it may roll
give it a spin
see if it can somehow factor in
you know there's always more than one way
to say exactly what you mean to say...
...so quiet but I finally woke up