In a moment of weakness...
It's been almost a year since I did anything more than stalk other people through this journal. But this summer, and it's not over yet, contains so many experiences I'm afraid I will forget some of them if I don't write them down.
Since my last real post, I have been to Rolex again. And this time I volunteered and got so see some of the competitors up close. It was like...a horse show. Which sounds like an obvious statement, but I guess I had built it up in my mind to something completely separate from the realm of the 'normal'. This disillusionment was actually a very good thing, because now I feel like my goals are more attainable than ever.
And at the same time I have a greater understanding of my own skills and just how lacking they are. Everything I have needs work, and I don't even have everything yet. But I have an amazing job and if I can keep it, I think I still have a chance.
That said, I work a lot. I was expecting to have a couple of part-time jobs, but it's turned into one full-time and one part. I work 11 or 12 hours a day 6 or 7 days a week. I'm tired and cranky and dirty at the end of the day, but for some reason I keep getting up in the morning to do it all over again. I am hoping this is a good sign.
Blogging loses its charm pretty fast, so I'll make a list.
I have been:
Ditched
Kicked
Towed
Pulled over
Summoned
Fined
Decked
Stepped on
Yelled at
I have also been:
Complimented in a big way
Taught
Helped
Given confidence
Hugged
Pushed to get better
Paid
Forgiven
and I saw Radiohead in St. Louis.
Since my last real post, I have been to Rolex again. And this time I volunteered and got so see some of the competitors up close. It was like...a horse show. Which sounds like an obvious statement, but I guess I had built it up in my mind to something completely separate from the realm of the 'normal'. This disillusionment was actually a very good thing, because now I feel like my goals are more attainable than ever.
And at the same time I have a greater understanding of my own skills and just how lacking they are. Everything I have needs work, and I don't even have everything yet. But I have an amazing job and if I can keep it, I think I still have a chance.
That said, I work a lot. I was expecting to have a couple of part-time jobs, but it's turned into one full-time and one part. I work 11 or 12 hours a day 6 or 7 days a week. I'm tired and cranky and dirty at the end of the day, but for some reason I keep getting up in the morning to do it all over again. I am hoping this is a good sign.
Blogging loses its charm pretty fast, so I'll make a list.
I have been:
Ditched
Kicked
Towed
Pulled over
Summoned
Fined
Decked
Stepped on
Yelled at
I have also been:
Complimented in a big way
Taught
Helped
Given confidence
Hugged
Pushed to get better
Paid
Forgiven
and I saw Radiohead in St. Louis.