Jan 31, 2003 16:53
When you hurt someone you love..you do it selfishly.You do it for your own satisfaction and you do it to placate your own fears.If its premeditated and you show no remorse...then you can never honestly say you are sorry and mean it.However if things happened you were not ready for...you can blame yourself only for putting yourself in the situation in the first place but you can take comfort in the fact you never meant for it to happen.A moment of weakness is worth a lifetime of regret if you allow it to consume you.It all comes back to fear..a fear of never being loved...a fear of abandonment...of death..of alienation..whatever.But love? Love is a tricky thing..you feel it so strongly one moment and then it becomes a habit and you forget its there.But you definitely remember it when its gone.
Betrayal of trust has to be the single biggest killer of relationships in the known universe.Both romantic and platonic.
I've lost friends and lovers and it always comes back to a betrayal of trust.So where do you go from there? Do you hold a grudge against yourself or against the person you betrayed for not being strong enough to forgive you? You shouldn't.No love is unconditional.
But there is always hope..hope to rebuild...hope to somehow come together and move forward...and it all starts with trusting again.