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Click to viewSometimes I wonder why people say that they love each other and more often then not I wonder why love hurts so much.... I don't know why I have such bad luck, but most of the guys I've dated...well we'll just say none have worked out. All right, I'll be honest, they've been spectacular failures and a testament to why not to get involved with anyone. I keep trying though, but my heart can only take so much pain.... *deep sigh*
There is one guy that gives me a spark of hope. I just wish we lived closer to each oher. He's so sweet and gentle, he calls me love, beloved, and so many other wonderful names. Sadly, even he has managed to pain me. He hates doing it though, at least he wins the nice guy award. Though, as with many of my exes, he also has feelings for someone else. I know it's silly to hope, but I do want to meet him and he says that he thinks it's a lovely idea. I think, even if he chooses someone else.... I can be happy. He's shown me that it's okay to hope and dream, and I do, of being happy with him one day. For now though, I take what I can get and settle for being in his arms, even if it's just online for now.
There's also a song I think of when we're together, but I'm just silly that way. He doesn't know it, but I play it a lot and it gives me even more hope. . I put it up for others to listen to and think about.
Anyone that's enough depression from me for you all. Til another day.