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This weekend was hectic.
And I'm not sure I liked it.
I slept at home on Friday only.
But I barely did that because Amanda and I were at Jay's till 5.
I guess all I can say is that the weekend was fun when I was doing things.
Like while I was at Highland Fest, it was fun.
But once I got home and looked back, it wasn't that great.
Same goes for Friday night.
And Saturday night, especially.
And then last night just got totally screwed up.
And even more so this morning.
Mike came to hang out with me.
I don't know what to think of that.
Even when we haven't seen eachother in three months.
The only thing we do is fight.
And when we don't fight, we don't talk.
He misses me.
Right...
He still cares about me.
Right...
We both have changed.
Right...
I doubt any of those are actually true.
We have not changed.
I know that I haven't because I went back to Will's this morning to make sure he was okay.
And to figure things out with him.
I need to just stop.
There's no point.
Especially now that he's gone,
and I doubt he'll drive to the cities again anytime soon.
And definatly not to see me.
I have an idea for when I get paid though.
Because honestly I feel bad about what happened.
So I know what to do.
And I don't know what to think about the other part right now.
All I can say I guess is that I wish people were honest.
Or that they had the decency to tell people important things.
I was in such a bad mood today that I got to work 40 minutes late.
I stayed at Emily's till 3:20.
And I took my time walking there.
To tell you the truth, I just had trouble moving.
Two nights of uncomfortable sleeping arrangements in a row isn't a good thing.
I had had the best feeling about this weekend.
And now I'm just left feeling incredibly stupid.
I hope Sam getting here cheers me up.
I bet it will.
He always cheers me up.
I love him.♥
California soon.
I'm gonna get away from everything.
Which is all I want to do right now.
And I'm not sure I liked it.
I slept at home on Friday only.
But I barely did that because Amanda and I were at Jay's till 5.
I guess all I can say is that the weekend was fun when I was doing things.
Like while I was at Highland Fest, it was fun.
But once I got home and looked back, it wasn't that great.
Same goes for Friday night.
And Saturday night, especially.
And then last night just got totally screwed up.
And even more so this morning.
Mike came to hang out with me.
I don't know what to think of that.
Even when we haven't seen eachother in three months.
The only thing we do is fight.
And when we don't fight, we don't talk.
He misses me.
Right...
He still cares about me.
Right...
We both have changed.
Right...
I doubt any of those are actually true.
We have not changed.
I know that I haven't because I went back to Will's this morning to make sure he was okay.
And to figure things out with him.
I need to just stop.
There's no point.
Especially now that he's gone,
and I doubt he'll drive to the cities again anytime soon.
And definatly not to see me.
I have an idea for when I get paid though.
Because honestly I feel bad about what happened.
So I know what to do.
And I don't know what to think about the other part right now.
All I can say I guess is that I wish people were honest.
Or that they had the decency to tell people important things.
I was in such a bad mood today that I got to work 40 minutes late.
I stayed at Emily's till 3:20.
And I took my time walking there.
To tell you the truth, I just had trouble moving.
Two nights of uncomfortable sleeping arrangements in a row isn't a good thing.
I had had the best feeling about this weekend.
And now I'm just left feeling incredibly stupid.
I hope Sam getting here cheers me up.
I bet it will.
He always cheers me up.
I love him.♥
California soon.
I'm gonna get away from everything.
Which is all I want to do right now.