Rumors of my demise have been greatly exaggerated

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So yes........update....*twiddles fingers* oh sweet jesus....i dont think i can take the pressure of updating a live journal that no ones reads.......(did i say pressure....oh silly me) its not the pressure its the fact that this is so totally redundent its almost fucking retarted.......i guess its an open pannel discussion for bitching about life.......in any case...(or for sad emo kids to pine over High school crushes gone amiss....(and to stalk out new ones) .....oh man.....its all that fucking KARMA....yeah the karma......the weight of the world ....my shoulders are fucking screaming from the damnation of living in a town where nothing occurs and my soul sits and staggnates like putrid water.......seeking solice in 39cent rentals from the entertainer, Adult Swim late at night and stephen king novels.........i want my dignity back, i want my illusion of safety that came from being young and too stupid to know any better.....im tired of feeling responsible and yet somehow always out gunned and always cornered.........maybe its not even that.......maybe im tired of doing it alone.....or tired of doing it when theres gotta be something better...or maybe its more selfish then that......maybe i just want this one thing on my terms more so then anything else

Think about it.......my life.....on my terms.......scary huh?
or maybe your life on your terms.......think about it.....maybe youll get it

-R