here without you
im forcing myself to make an entry. i just dont feel like talking about things the way i used to. i remember when i would update multiple times each day - now its only a couple of times a month.
the drs have been playing around with my meds. nothing seems to be working anymore. so im going back on zoloft and theyre adding another med in hopes that ill be "normal" again. but nothing will ever be normal again.
i made the teen dance company. it was partly a shock, but partly expected. jen announced at the end of auditions that she would have two companies: an advanced senior company and a teen company. and theres a junior company but its for younger kids. im glad i made it i just hope i can keep up...
i was grounded from my car all weekend because i made skidmarks and went over a curb earlier this week. i think i should get points for admitting it though...but i have it back now. it sucked to have it gone this weekend though.
my dad got married saturday. small wedding. i dont know what else to say about it. im surprised it happened i guess.
and zach and i made it official on saturday - we're bf/gf. hes made me truly appreciate what i have in life. i really feel loved with him - i dont think anyone else has made me feel this way.
on saturday my mom and i had a big fight. it was her weekend but i was wicked mad at her so i didnt want to stay the night. and the day before my dad and i got in a fight so i was pissed at both parents with pretty much no where to go. i did find somewhere, im not telling for fear ill get in trouble, but lets just say that im glad that im older now.
and i feel like im falling behind in school. i already have to make you a test and 2 quizzes because of my emoness, absentness, and unpreparedness. this semester is going to suck.
umm...to leave on a good note...i have a wicked pretty arrangement of candles in my room that smells wicked good. im really proud of it. :-)
goodnight kids.
the drs have been playing around with my meds. nothing seems to be working anymore. so im going back on zoloft and theyre adding another med in hopes that ill be "normal" again. but nothing will ever be normal again.
i made the teen dance company. it was partly a shock, but partly expected. jen announced at the end of auditions that she would have two companies: an advanced senior company and a teen company. and theres a junior company but its for younger kids. im glad i made it i just hope i can keep up...
i was grounded from my car all weekend because i made skidmarks and went over a curb earlier this week. i think i should get points for admitting it though...but i have it back now. it sucked to have it gone this weekend though.
my dad got married saturday. small wedding. i dont know what else to say about it. im surprised it happened i guess.
and zach and i made it official on saturday - we're bf/gf. hes made me truly appreciate what i have in life. i really feel loved with him - i dont think anyone else has made me feel this way.
on saturday my mom and i had a big fight. it was her weekend but i was wicked mad at her so i didnt want to stay the night. and the day before my dad and i got in a fight so i was pissed at both parents with pretty much no where to go. i did find somewhere, im not telling for fear ill get in trouble, but lets just say that im glad that im older now.
and i feel like im falling behind in school. i already have to make you a test and 2 quizzes because of my emoness, absentness, and unpreparedness. this semester is going to suck.
umm...to leave on a good note...i have a wicked pretty arrangement of candles in my room that smells wicked good. im really proud of it. :-)
goodnight kids.