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Try not to want too much. Try not to break your own little heart. I wonder why it is that what I purse is unaware it is being pursued or simply runs away. I wonder what the hell I am doing here. I find solace in my studies but it feels empty sometimes. Just because I am working so very hard does not mean that it equates to paper. It does not necessarily grant me admission into my program which is solely based upon grades as it is. I am keeping calm. My head is above water but I might just be holding my breath anyways. Auntie is very ill and depressed. Next week I am driving into the city to take care of her, clean, and cook Thanksgiving dinner for the family. I am at a loss for all sorts of things in my life right now. It is easier to think in terms of the past or the future but seldom the present. If I opened my eyes a little bit wider I might be terrified of the things I see. But this, in its purest essence is a necessary evil.
Love to you all,
Mara
Love to you all,
Mara