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i wish i knew what to do with myself. i wish i felt stronger. i know i'm strong. it's just that it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, and if i could do anything, it would be to stop this pain, because i can tell anyone anything about how angry i am, but i don't stop loving him. i never stop loving him and i feel so stupid.
and i remember the things that were said that shouldn't have.
i remember crying, and how i can't cry anymore, but i still want to, so bad. i won't let myself, but i want to so badly.
and fuck all these sad songs, and fuck this stagnant place, i want out. i want away and out and to forget about loving someone who never loved me back even when he said he did.
how do you forget, really? how do you forget the words you say to one person, just because it's easier to say them to someone new, someone who doesn't know you.
and i remember the things that were said that shouldn't have.
i remember crying, and how i can't cry anymore, but i still want to, so bad. i won't let myself, but i want to so badly.
and fuck all these sad songs, and fuck this stagnant place, i want out. i want away and out and to forget about loving someone who never loved me back even when he said he did.
how do you forget, really? how do you forget the words you say to one person, just because it's easier to say them to someone new, someone who doesn't know you.