i just don’t understand how you can smile with all those tears in your eyes...
this will inevitably come off as sounding trite and melodramatic, but i never thought i'd return to this terrible place inside of me. i thought i had abandoned it a long time ago, but its return is just a testament to my ability to overcome adversity, or really the lack of said ability. i am starting to feeling like i am losing more than myself these days and that couldn't be more frightening.
just ignore this crap. it really won't make sense to anyone who reads this b/c i don't want it to. it doesn't have to. and i've never given anyone enough information about me to make sense of my thoughts right now. as much as people may think they know me and know what i'm all about, hah anyone would be surprised to know how much i have kept away from the whole world.
god i sound like some stupid teenager. better go write some fucking depressing poetry or dye my hair black or something. jesus christ, what a laugh.
just ignore this crap. it really won't make sense to anyone who reads this b/c i don't want it to. it doesn't have to. and i've never given anyone enough information about me to make sense of my thoughts right now. as much as people may think they know me and know what i'm all about, hah anyone would be surprised to know how much i have kept away from the whole world.
god i sound like some stupid teenager. better go write some fucking depressing poetry or dye my hair black or something. jesus christ, what a laugh.