my world is fallin apart
every1 is sad. i feel so depressed. i just wanna lay in my bed n cry 4ever. where do i start. my friends. they're droppin like flies. Im pushing Anna away cuz we could never be best friends, since it never works. Its harder than i thought it would b. im just tryin 2 get thru each day. Im probably gonna go 2 skool 2morrow n b happy n fun, but ill b heart broken. I feel like nothing can go right. NOTHING! shes gonna die, n i cant do nething but pray that she is ok by the time my bm comes along. i havent been doing my work cuz im so not in the mood 2 do nething but b depressed. i could b having fun with my friend, turn around n cry in the next moment.mayb things will b different when skool starts.
kirstens self destructing herself. shes totally setting herself up with him. shes probably readin this but i dont care, its on my mind. marah doesnt seem so cheery l8ly. we got in a fight (only an hour, we luv each other 2 much 4 nething more) but i think we were just both on edge. then anna of course had n opinion, which kinda ticked me off. we both freaked n were upset 4 diff reasons, but w/e its over.
i think i should just not hang out with ne1 2day, dont talk 2 ppl n work. clean my room, take my shower, laundry, bm work, everything n get it done n then just wallow, just b sad. relax, in a way. get myself energized and b refreshed 4 the next day.
i miss being happy, i was really happy during 1st n half of this 2nd trimester. what happened? i just feel so lonly. i keep thinking if i have a bf everything will b better, but its not fair 2 base all my happiness on 1 person who doesnt exist. im so drained.
bye
emma
kirstens self destructing herself. shes totally setting herself up with him. shes probably readin this but i dont care, its on my mind. marah doesnt seem so cheery l8ly. we got in a fight (only an hour, we luv each other 2 much 4 nething more) but i think we were just both on edge. then anna of course had n opinion, which kinda ticked me off. we both freaked n were upset 4 diff reasons, but w/e its over.
i think i should just not hang out with ne1 2day, dont talk 2 ppl n work. clean my room, take my shower, laundry, bm work, everything n get it done n then just wallow, just b sad. relax, in a way. get myself energized and b refreshed 4 the next day.
i miss being happy, i was really happy during 1st n half of this 2nd trimester. what happened? i just feel so lonly. i keep thinking if i have a bf everything will b better, but its not fair 2 base all my happiness on 1 person who doesnt exist. im so drained.
bye
emma