May 27, 2006 09:07
um a lot is happenin actually
so ben (yg) told me he liked me on tues? yea tues
and i said we should just b friends
and then after that he was xtremely flirtacious and wanted me 2 hang out wit him n i just tried my hardest 2 get myself outa it.
and at first the attention was appreciated
but then it got annoyin cuz i said JUST FRIENDS
adn then it got weird
when he txts me sayin somethin like "sumtimes i feel like i dont or cant, that if we were 2getha i wouldnt deserve u"
i mean wtf he cant say that 2 me-just friends means sumthin
and so i told him that's crossin the line and were just friends
and he tried 2 defend it but it didnt make sense and said bye midsentence
and hasnt talked 2 me since
and i felt really bad but it just wasnt ok wit me
but youth groups gonna b SO akward if hes there.
but then thursday connor n i were talkin n it was like midnight so i had 2 go 2 bed n he said i couldnt go til i answer the question he knew i wouldnt answer
and he asked who i liked and i told him he knew the answer (cuz its him and he knows but thats a diff story) and then i said i didnt wanna answer (cuz im not a huge fan of rejection)n i got outa it
and then fri me n justine n ariana were talkin about it n we flipped a coin n decided that i would tell him (if the coin says!)so i did
and were goin out monday
yay
thats it
i gotta call marah n berri bout 2day
peace