happy
im so sick of being sad. i told myself @ the beginnin of the skool year, i was gonna b happy. i would b 1 of those ppl who lights up a room. n it worked 4 a lil while, but then sad stuff got in the way. mayb its okay 2 b both. mayb, instead of tryin 2 b happy, i should stop the drama. I confuse myself sumtimes. I tell myself, dont get in fights, so i dont tell how angry or sad or frustrated i really am, so im constantly mad @ sum1 n they have no idea. i tell them, im really mad, n im called a drama queen, when thats the opposite of wat i thought. its just, the person who knows the most about me n how i feel is marah, n she doesnt no half of it. theres those things i cant tell ne1, but those things i can, i dont tell. y? cuz i dont want 2 b that grl with all the problems. like kirsten, everyday, sumthin new. @least when im upset, its 1 or 2 things, like my grandma n my bat mitzvah. she has sumthin new, other stuff goes away n comes back along with more bagguage. u cant have ur own problems with her. i hate when i lie 2 ppl, even if its 2 spare them. or if im really pissed, n i dont tell ppl. y am i like this, it just makes me angry. i rthink i should suck out all the poison. i have problems with people, so i should tell them, like anna, i have sumthin 2 tell anna.
i gtg, emma
i gtg, emma