springs coming

[idance247]

i havent updated in a while. Ive just been really stressed out latly. I have a lot of work on my Bat mitzvah and a research paper. I havent had a good night sleep, or a day where i havent cried, in like a week. i just want 2 stop being sad. i mean shes so sick, she can barely, lift her own spoon. its just, shes so weak, and this is her being better. i just keep telling myself not 2 think about it, but i cant stop. im always worried, and always sad or mad or frustrated, and anna isnt helping. well @least i have kirsten and marah, they've been gr8. marah is so encouraging and thinks im an amazing friend and would never hurt me every, what would i do without her? and kirsten, shes just always there, i can call her and talk 4eva, n i can have fun. ive been so frustrated with the anna thing that i havent noticed that i dont deserve her as a friend. all i can say about her is that we have fun with her @ the movies, which i can say about ne1. n she doesnt give a fuck about me @ all, so y should i waste my time on her? w/e i gtg relax, i havent been able 2 stop moving 4 3 days, i was up till 11:30 friday nite working on hw, on sat i had recital than grandparents while mom n dad went 2 a party, n the whole time i work on bat mitzvah stuff. then on sun. morning i worked non stop on more bat, then left 4 my session @ 12:45 and got home @ like 4:30 when i had 2 leave right away 4 grands again 4 my grandpas b-day dinner. @ least 2morrow i can chill @ the mall w/nat *shout out 2 natz* and kirsten n kyle(if hes comin). itll b fun. kk, write l8er, emma
P.S. I just looked @ my Subject n its cuz it was 40 degrees!!!! outside 2day, icicles melting, emmas dancing, life is good