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[idamis]

Some girls are just meant to smile
i'm one of the guys
to them i'm unimaginable to date
but the one that i could date
that feels the same way
is turned away by the general thought that "it would be like incest"

they told me to date guys that i know aren't jerks
date my friends
people i know
but when i finally follow through on their advice
it doesn't work

my best friend feels for me
like i feel for my best friend from home
unimaginable to date
but still there's a strong feeling there
it would break my heart to see one of my friend's date my best friend
even though i know us could never happen
and that's the same situation here
but it still sucks

so i'm the one girl of the guys that everyone would date
but you don't date your sister
i care for everyone of them
their happiness is so important to me
it's like i'm dating all of them
but that one fact that he liked me and would go heartbroken to see me with one of his friends
it makes it impossible for me to be anything but one of the guys

I do not blame anyone
i do not hate anyone
I understand completely
but it still sucks no matter which way you put it

So i'll go on alone
being one of the guys
miserable but happy
and i'll just slap a smile on my face
and as always, pretend everything is alright