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[idamis]

so good talk with erica today at lunch- things are good again.

being in college has taught me alot and i'm just going to put it out there...

life is an adventure
there a lot of challenges in this adventure
one of the biggest is college
here you decide your life

beyond that you learn how to live on your own
i've lived on my own before
but not like this
i've been on my own but had responsibility of 10 little girls
here i'm on my own and i don't have to worry about anyone
but i've met people who i care about dearly
i care about their state of being; their happiness
i care about them more than myself
that's who i am
that's why i should be a counselor...right?

alot on my mind
aaron played me and now he's moved on
i can't take that because he never gave me a chance
when i see him with other girls it makes me upset
i'm destined to be just a bridesmaid

unsure of my feelings
just wanting to go home
to turn back time and stop it "there"

you and i were happy then
yeah that boy was on my mind then but you were there
i dream of the day we try being what everyone sees

i had it all
amazing friends
amazing job that i loved
amazing coach and my best friend on my swim team to help me through everything
i had responsibilities
i was someone

here i'm no one
i'm the straight-edged one
the nice one
i'm h2o
just water that no one notices
that's how it is

life is an adventure
an adventure through hell, but we all go through it