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ok so today was my cuz's b-day,and the 4th of july.my bf came over at like noon and stayed till 10 p.m. i want to brakup with my bf.he is to klingy,shy,he got me grounded,he dosn't no how to leave me alone,ect..ok so i addmite i am not over jess and it will take me a long time to be over him.i still cry over him a lot.i go over to his house a lot cuz i feel safe there and his mom loves me like i was her daughter.i only feel safe with amina my best friend,at jess's house,and with my cuz miranda.so i write jess a letter every night and i go and read the letters to him.i have always over worked myself in sports,and my goal for this sumer is to get back in shape.i no i am not really out of shape but still.so i run and ride my bike every day.i work so hard that i pass out and make myself sick.i have been sick for about a month to a month in a half.but thats not becuz i work myself to hard.i am takeing belladonna for it though.i cheeted on my bf and he didn't really mind but you could tell that it hurt him.i didn't plan to cheet on him tough.i want skool to start so bad.i can't beleave i just said that.i sound like amina.some of my family have big mauths and it pisses my off.every time i am supost to have a really big suprise somebody has to mess it up by telling me.so ni am not supost to be going to idaho or organ this summer.but i get to go to both angd it was supost to be a suprise and somebody had to go and mess it all up.my cuz t.j. is bake in jail witch really sucks.he is one of the only cuzs i get along with.i now i am going to sound like amina when i say this but thats ok.i love skool so much and it sucks that i am not in skool cuz its summer.i want skool to start so bad.i miss jess so much.i can't really feel anything cuz i miss him so much.i don't think i am ready for a serious relationship.i am allways tyred and i don't no why.well i have to go so ttyl.love to all.