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so i'm back
and glad to be so

it's interesting
i was so excited
to see family
to see friends
to sleep in my own bed

but it wasn't what i was expecting
because inevitably things change

i have changed

it sucks going back
and being treated like a child again
with none of the freedom that i'm now used to
to do what i want when i want
to judge for myself what i want and need

it's also wierd to go back and have a new perspective
on just how toxic some things actually are

i miss my friends
and i loved seeing them
but they have changed too
which is a good thing
just, it's different

so yeah, i'm back

the wierdest thing happened the other day
someone asked how long my break was
and i said "i go home on tuesday"
a slight slip-up
sort of

i don't know where home is anymore