She says she loves me to the fullest..
I read her blog and it says she loves me to the fullest... Okay, Thank's I guess. It sure shows. But she does do things for me. She's incredible. I think I am just being a drag on her. I hate it. The gun I was going to shoot myself and end this bullshit life I have. But I did not want to make a mess in Isai's new house. So, I just took the picture instead. Sometimes I regret that I did not do it beacuse I still have to wake up the next day with the problems being piled and piled on me. Last night, she just stopped picking up her cell phone. I kept trying to call. She did not even call to fucking say good night. I see exactly how it is now. I was being thoughtful and she does not even call to say goodnight. I don't even know if she went out. I asked her if she wanted to hang out she said she had finals but yeah, right. She can't stay a whole weekend in. I'm just going to stop talking about this. I'm going to stop showing you my pain. I am going to stop. Things are A OKAY now. You win, You don't need need me to be bringing you down. So I will be leaving. Get my life together. Right now it's a mess. My heart is shattered and I don't know how to handle it. Twice in a fucking year. God. I'm an idiot.