here it comes...
a chill breeze through the broken windows,
of my heart.
the autumn has come, and now is the time,
for contemplations underneath a falling sun,
the mood in the air has changed,
the taste of the wind is crisp, not bitter,
life goes on at its always steady pace,
i'm the one, still trying to race through,
and get to the finish -- before ive even started.
lifes not fair, i can feel it in my bones,
as i scream it in the air, to an empty
night sky, as the clouds pass by
overhead, and leave me a spot to view the stars,
so serene, and yet so surreal.
why do i, always get so worked up,
over the small things that've never mattered.
caught up in the projected, unnatainable glory,
of perfection. impatience and restlesness - two main
chapters of, my life story.
lifes not fair, i can feel it in my bones,
as i scream it in the air, to an empty
night sky, as the clouds pass by
overhead, and leave me a spot to view the stars,
so serene, and yet so surreal.
relaxing, kicked back under an old oak tree,
it's almost perfect,
but i still wish, you were here with me.
despite my faults, i'm not that bad,
just one more try - we'll have the best nite
there is to be had.
what have we got, to loose?
lifes not fair, i can feel it in my bones,
as i scream it in the air, to an empty
night sky, as the clouds pass by
overhead, and leave me a spot to view the stars,
so serene, and yet so surreal.
people change - like red and golden leaves,
falling form the branches of the trees, in my backyard -
but i try not to, i want to stay the same,
so that you will recognize me, in the end, of it all,
silence now...except for my icy breaths,
flowing smoothly out into the frozen winter air.
with each exhaled breath, out flows my worries and my cares,
but with every fucking inhalation, here they come,
right back again.
lifes not fair, i can feel it in my bones,
as i scream it in the air, to an empty
night sky, as the clouds pass by
overhead, and leave me a spot to view the stars,
so serene, and yet so surreal.
from fallen leaves, to crystal snow,
i try harder every day,
but my mind, still won't let you go,
i've come to understand,
the search for your heart is futile,
it's not for me to find.
all i can do is wait and hope,
if you ever think of me,
please don't hesitate
to let me know.
lifes not fair, i can feel it in my bones,
as i scream it in the air, to an empty
night sky, as the clouds pass by
overhead, and leave me a spot to view the stars,
so serene, and yet so surreal.
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that was written on the 13th, enjoy. im fucking cold...
i spent friday nite in chicago with my dad, that was cool. we went to a show (Blue Man Group) which was really fun, and then to dinner, and then a comedy club - ImprovOlympic, which i would definatly recomend...and then friday nite, i had The Best Dream i think ive had in years. i just wish it would come true, holy fuck, what i wouldnt give...anyways, thats not the point, it was just really good (and no it wasnt a dream-orgy or anything, just something ive wanted for a long time) but im tired, so peace...
of my heart.
the autumn has come, and now is the time,
for contemplations underneath a falling sun,
the mood in the air has changed,
the taste of the wind is crisp, not bitter,
life goes on at its always steady pace,
i'm the one, still trying to race through,
and get to the finish -- before ive even started.
lifes not fair, i can feel it in my bones,
as i scream it in the air, to an empty
night sky, as the clouds pass by
overhead, and leave me a spot to view the stars,
so serene, and yet so surreal.
why do i, always get so worked up,
over the small things that've never mattered.
caught up in the projected, unnatainable glory,
of perfection. impatience and restlesness - two main
chapters of, my life story.
lifes not fair, i can feel it in my bones,
as i scream it in the air, to an empty
night sky, as the clouds pass by
overhead, and leave me a spot to view the stars,
so serene, and yet so surreal.
relaxing, kicked back under an old oak tree,
it's almost perfect,
but i still wish, you were here with me.
despite my faults, i'm not that bad,
just one more try - we'll have the best nite
there is to be had.
what have we got, to loose?
lifes not fair, i can feel it in my bones,
as i scream it in the air, to an empty
night sky, as the clouds pass by
overhead, and leave me a spot to view the stars,
so serene, and yet so surreal.
people change - like red and golden leaves,
falling form the branches of the trees, in my backyard -
but i try not to, i want to stay the same,
so that you will recognize me, in the end, of it all,
silence now...except for my icy breaths,
flowing smoothly out into the frozen winter air.
with each exhaled breath, out flows my worries and my cares,
but with every fucking inhalation, here they come,
right back again.
lifes not fair, i can feel it in my bones,
as i scream it in the air, to an empty
night sky, as the clouds pass by
overhead, and leave me a spot to view the stars,
so serene, and yet so surreal.
from fallen leaves, to crystal snow,
i try harder every day,
but my mind, still won't let you go,
i've come to understand,
the search for your heart is futile,
it's not for me to find.
all i can do is wait and hope,
if you ever think of me,
please don't hesitate
to let me know.
lifes not fair, i can feel it in my bones,
as i scream it in the air, to an empty
night sky, as the clouds pass by
overhead, and leave me a spot to view the stars,
so serene, and yet so surreal.
-----------------------------------------------------
that was written on the 13th, enjoy. im fucking cold...
i spent friday nite in chicago with my dad, that was cool. we went to a show (Blue Man Group) which was really fun, and then to dinner, and then a comedy club - ImprovOlympic, which i would definatly recomend...and then friday nite, i had The Best Dream i think ive had in years. i just wish it would come true, holy fuck, what i wouldnt give...anyways, thats not the point, it was just really good (and no it wasnt a dream-orgy or anything, just something ive wanted for a long time) but im tired, so peace...